I’m still,, mostly here. I’m not doing good though, like, at all. My issues with suicidal ideation are back full force, my social circle has been dwindling, I’m so depressed that college is all I can really keep up with, I’ve been sick, and I apparently look so exhausted that one of my instructors happily excused me from missing a meeting with her.
I want to write, but all I really have energy for are the things that I’m really, really excited about. Which, unfortunately, hasn’t been requests. I’m kinda considering deleting everything out of the inbox and starting fresh, just in the hopes that new requests will make me actually write something… If I get in a mood for DL/request writing I’ll probably do more, but support, both for my other writing and in general, would be much appreciated.
I really wanted to write something today, but my brain has been unwilling to cooperate. I definitely know that I’m having another episode of depression, and I might have missed my meds last night, sooo
Send me stuff. Simple questions and stuff that I can answer and feel productive without actually having to do anything too complex. I’m in one of those weird moods where I’ll probably answer anything, and probably be way more relaxed about stuff than when my head is all there. (ﾟ⊿ﾟ)
Okay, um, I’m sort of here. I’ve been writing again, like an actual decent amount, but it’s been working on my long fics, like the Sub Au fic and some other ones that I haven’t touched since spring. Again, I’ll be back to requests when I have the time/energy.
In the mean time, though, I’m sorta looking for a person (or a couple people) to look over some of my non-DL in progress writing and check for typos/encourage me/let me explain ideas to them. So, if any of my followers are into Tokyo Ghoul in particular, and would like to do the above as well as see some of my works before they’re posted, send me a message!
Also, I said Tokyo Ghoul, but I’d be delighted to find anyone who knows any of the fandoms I’ve written for here on my Ao3. Those long fics are the ones I need to be poked into working on… -w-
I’m finally settled in in my new apartment, college is going well, and I will hopefully be able to return to a semi-normal writing schedule soon. In the mean time, if I dropped off the face of the Earth in a conversation with you, send me something. My life is finally going back to sort of normal, and I want to catch up on this stuff!
Thank y’all for your patience!! I shall write again soon!!
TODAY IS MY MOVING DAY! Regular posting should resume soon, hopefully! But in the mean time, I’m soooorta freaking out, so if y’all could send me some nice things it would be much appreciated! ((・▽・)) Like Innocents or LHC stuff, or just cute DL ideas to distract me from the whole moving thing cause I am VERY NERVOUS
Long story, dolls are my special interest and are about 70% of what’s keeping me from getting super depressed all over again, and at the moment I’m after a very cute, yet very expensive doll head that I fell in love with.
So! Writing commissions!!
What I will write:
Ocs
Self Inserts
Nsfw
Honestly pretty much anything that doesn’t actively bother me
Fandom wise, just ask. I’ve seen a lot of anime and such, and I’m open to writing about anything that I’m decently familiar with. Hollow-related Bleach stuff and Diabolik Lovers are preferred (cause I’m most used to writing them), but I’m not picky!
Prices:
$1 USD per 100 words, plus PayPal fees. A 1000 word fic would be $10, a 500 word short would be $5, and so on. I’m open to writing anything from shorts to long fics! If there’s something you’ve wanted to see me write, now’s your chance!! ☆ヾ(*´▽｀)ﾉ
Also, I will definitely take commissions for chapters of the Sub Au fic!!
Requests:
This is kind of a new idea, and I’m not sure if it’ll work, but I’ll do extra requests from the ask for $2 USD each. By extra, I mean posted outside of the usual one-a-day-ish schedule that I try to keep. I’ve had people asking for more requests posted a day! So! Here’s a way to try to make that happen!! Oh, and if you want to, you can get multiple of these!! I’m open to as many of these commissions as there are requests to do for them~
Message me if you’re interested in anything, please!! ( ◞･౪･)
The Kou one is done!! Laito is up next!! 😀 Hope you don’t mind that I decided to do these in short fic form~
Blindfolded, so he couldn’t use his magic eye to gain any kind of upper hand, you could see faint tear tracks along the flushed skin of Kou’s cheeks.
You’d spent the past ten minutes talking to him, breaking down every wall you could find, little by little pulling apart the glue that held together his carefully constructed facade. Kou had been left just helpless enough that he wouldn’t be able to keep himself together, and you’d slowly pulled away every bit of fakeness that he clung to, used to shield himself from the world.
His shoulders were shaking, little trembles spasming through him as he fought with whatever pride he had left not to cry. What you could see of his face was scrunched up, streaked with messy, wet tears.
When you lowered a hand to his face to brush away tears, he flinched.
“Poor thing. You didn’t want me to see this, did you?” you murmured, stroking your fingers over hot, damp skin. “Are you afraid?”
Kou sobbed, trying to curl up on himself, but you nudged his limbs back apart, not letting him hide. “O-Of course not,” he whined, voice fragile and weak. “I– I don’t–It feels like you’re taking me apart.” His hand found your wrist, squeezing, and he hesitantly nuzzled at your hip.
“Do you want me to stop?” you asked, and Kou froze. A little whine left his throat, and his hand tightened around your wrist, bruising.
“N-No! I’m, it’s–” he shuddered again, so hard you could feel it. “Please don’t leave me. I need you.” There was a raw emotion in his voice like nothing you’d ever heard from him, something vulnerable and open.
“Not gonna leave,” you crooned, leaning down to press soft little kisses onto what skin of his face you can reach. Kou whimpered at the touch, squirming, and when he reached up to tug you down to him, you went willingly. You let yourself be pulled back onto the bed, where Kou latched on.
You pulled him close to you, looping an arm around his skinny shoulders and letting him nuzzle into your chest. He clings to you like he needs the affection terribly, pressing his blindfolded face close.
“Good boy. Thank you so much for trusting me. I won’t leave, promise. I’ll be right here to take care of you,” you say, soft.
Kou whines, mumbles something into your skin about how broken he is, and your heart aches. This is the real him. At least, as close to it as you’ve ever gotten, and what you’re finding is heartbreaking.
What’s happened to him is so far beyond what you know how to deal with. Just getting to the root of the trauma like this is hard for both of you. You can’t imagine what you’d have to do to actually start fixing anything that you’ve found. You don’t know if Kou could take it.
“It’s okay if you’re broken,” you say, pausing for just a moment to press another kiss into his soft hair. “I’ll love you no matter what.”
If anyone could buy even one, just getting them out of the house so I don’t have to worry about what to do with them would be great. My Etsy is here, and I have super cute vintage Barbies for as cheap as $10 USD, and one of a kind reroots for as cheap as $15. I have three more dolls that I’ll be listing soon, and that makes 11 that could hopefully get sold!
I’d be super super grateful if anyone can give one a home!! The less I have to worry about while I’m moving, the better, and a custom doll made by me might be a pretty cool thing to have, right? 😀
Welp, I’ve had like 2 panic attacks tonight and I’m beyond tired. Definitely not gonna be able to write. I want to get something in the queue though, so I guess I’ll take a couple aesthetic requests just so I can get something done. Those are something I can do without too much effort… Any DL character is fine for the aesthetic requests, but if you want a DL Oc one, message me first so I can get enough information on them! (●´ω｀●)ゞ
If anyone could buy even one, just getting them out of the house so I don’t have to worry about what to do with them would be great. My Etsy is here, and I have super cute vintage Barbies for as cheap as $10 USD, and one of a kind reroots for as cheap as $15. I have three more dolls that I’ll be listing soon, and that makes 11 that could hopefully get sold!
I’d be super super grateful if anyone can give one a home!! The less I have to worry about while I’m moving, the better, and a custom doll made by me might be a pretty cool thing to have, right? 😀
Omg
I wanna buy it
But i’m Brazilian
Hmm, I don’t see why that’s a problem? Aside from shipping being sort of high, is there some reason why that’s an issue? My Etsy shows that I ship to Brazil too… Please feel free to contact me if I can help you figure it out! o3o
Also, I’m probably going to keep reblogging this until I sell at least a couple of them. ｢(ﾟﾍﾟ)
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