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xeno au: laito realizing that he’s 100% attached to the person he’s bonded with ?? ik this isn’t rlly specific but i’d like to know his whole thought process etc ,,

(๑꒪▿꒪)* No problem!! It’s a very interesting concept to explore!

-Laito would not take that well at all. He’s spent so long avoiding any kind of real feelings, convincing himself that love is simply physical that actual feelings are terrifying. If he loves you, you can hurt him. If he’s attached to you, you can find the parts of him that could tear him apart. When he starts to realize that he’s fallen, he panics, avoiding you in a panicked attempt to prevent any more feelings from forming. He’s scared, genuinely scared of what you can do to him now that you have this kind of power over him. 

For all he tries to seem above it all, Laito falls hard and fast when he starts to love someone. If you manage to break through the shell of carefully constructed defenses he’s spent a lifetime cultivating, you’ll get right to the weakest parts of him before he knows how to stop you. A bond makes Laito needy, softer, closer to his vulnerable childhood self, back before he understood how much love can hurt. 

Laito will absolutely try to use sex to justify his new “love” for you. As long as he can convince himself that his feelings are merely physical, he’s safe. As long as he can keep things to just sex, he’ll be safe from the vulnerabilities that real love entails. He’ll do anything to keep up his facade, even after it becomes pathetically obvious that he’s fallen hard. When he finally breaks, it’s to an obsessive, needy, desperate kind of love that consumes every part of him. You’re not going to hurt him, you love him, and he can’t get enough. 

Sub Ruki head canons. I’m dying these are all so good!

o(○｀ω´○)9 Glad you like ‘em!

-Ruki tries so, so hard to stay stern and commanding, even when it’s becoming painfully obvious that he’d rather you take control. A combination of ego and trauma won’t let him show you just how vulnerable he’s starting to feel. It’s subtle when Ruki starts wanting you to own him, visible through body language, how he stops going through with his threats of punishment, how his stoic exterior starts to crumble little by little. 

-Breaking down his ego is an interesting process. He goes from coldly furious at the mere suggestion of you in charge to faltering a bit every time you stand up for yourself, then finally starting to crack. Ruki is so set on being above it all that he’ll barely realize that he’s falling until it’s too late, until he’s leaning into every touch. He’ll find himself obeying you before he knows what’s happening, and panic all the more when it finally clicks. 

-While he does well with a stern dominant, Ruki has enough trauma under the surface that you have to be careful. Anything do with his scars can come close to breaking him, and being blindfolded or restrained under the wrong circumstances can make him panic. You have to walk a delicate balance of strict, yet caring, cruel, yet sensitive enough to know when to stop. 

Can I have some nsfw headcanons for sub au for kanato and Azusa please

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Kanato:

-Kanato is beyond needy, both sexually and when it comes to affection. For a long time, he’ll try to use sex as a means of controlling you, and even when that fails, he wants physical affection almost constantly. He’s a total brat, and will complain incessantly about anything that he claims not to like, and yet, throws even more of a fit if you try to stop. It helps his pride to pretend like he doesn’t like the more embarrassing things you do to him, so establishing a safe word from the beginning is essential, even if he claims not to need it. 

-He’s more than fine with your arrangement being a permanent thing. As in, if you want to use him while he’s asleep, he wouldn’t try to stop you. If you wanted to control what he eats and wears, he’d complain, but go along with it embarrassingly quickly. If you wanted to do things to him in near-public, he’d take pride in the fact that you’re so willing to claim him. His ideal situation is to be like your little doll, a possession to be owned and loved. There are a whole pile of issues to sort out with that, though, as his idea of a relationship is far from healthy, even when he’s not the one in control. 

Azusa:

-This one is pretty obvious, but Azusa lives for pain. Whatever you can do to him is fine, as long as it hurts. His healing means that he can take a lot more than a human can, and he’ll happily let you cut deep gashes into his skin, whip him bruised and bloody, choke him, or anything else that will let him feel how much you care. In his view, pain caused by you is a sign of love, and he can’t get enough of any way you can hurt him, be it in a sexual context or not.

-While Azusa does tend to be downright demanding when it comes to you hurting him, he’s far more concerned about your pleasure than his own. You could keep him from finishing for weeks, and as long as you were happy with it, the desperate agony would just make him all the more driven. As long as you’re paying attention to him, anything you do is welcome, and as long as he can feel the pain the signifies your love, it doesn’t matter what else you want from him. He’s one of the subs who claims to have no limits… and worryingly, he means it. 

I think it’s interesting how the Do-M sides of the boys in both Human and Sub Aus are exactly the same, but come from different places. In the Human Au, their masochism is just your run of the mill desire to be owned and hurt bc it feels really good, which is great to have fun w/ as a sadist :)), but in the Sub Au, it comes from a certain vulnerability, of wanting to be looked after, wanted and cared for and to stop having to THINK so much (along with, of course, a good deal of pain ;p)

Indeed!! I love that you’ve looked into the writing this much ❤ You described my intentions with their masochistic side perfectly, and I could make a lil mini-rant here, but you kind of already summed up what I was going for! The Human Au is just a twisting of canon, while the Sub Au is actively exploring some of the boys’ darkest issues, and how that could affect their personalities if things went even a slightly different way. I’ve always seen the boys as fragile and vulnerable in a way, even through all of their cruelty, and the Sub Au is my way of exploring how I think they could have been. 

I’ve been rather impartial to the headcanon that in the Human AU!, Cordelia made sure that the triplets never got swimming lessons so her threats of throwing them into the lake still scared them. Laito went behind her back and at least taught himself how to doggy paddle just in case she ever made good on her threats. It’s always been a great source of embarrassment to them though, particularly Ayato, especially in summer, when they had to sit out for P.E and couldn’t go to any pool parties

Awww, this is sad. ;w; Excellent idea though, and 100% one that I agree with!! Laito would definitely do something like that to try to protect himself, but the other two… yeah, they’d be in trouble if Cordelia ever did decide to do something like that. I agree that it would be super embarrassing to have everyone know that they can’t even do a basic kid thing, too.  

I had a question about the parental AU. Is biting a sexual thing. Cause honestly I think it would be really cute imagining kid ayato Cuddling up and drinking and taking a nap on you cause he was full.

I’m answering this for canon/all Aus, sort of, but personally, I see biting as intimate, not sexual. In the case of masochists who enjoy the pain or sadists who enjoy causing it, it can be a sexual thing, but there’s nothing inherently sexual about it. I could go into more detail here on the exact dynamics of how I see feeding, but I’ll wait for someone to actually ask about that -w- Your idea is perfectly valid, and super, super cute! ❤ 

Omg I just love your blog and how you portray the diaboys how they really act, their real selves and I just really love it! You know how to write how they would really act in certain situations and they aren’t ooc at all as far as I see. Keep up the beautiful work!

Thank you!! I’ve put a lot of work into my writing, and it means a lot to hear things like this :3 I’m glad that I seem to be portraying their characters well. I love the boys dearly, and writing them is always so much fun ❤

Hey! Just dropping by to say that you’re the first blog I check when I open Tumblr and I can’t wait to read what you write (though Human Au is my firm favourite, followed by the Sub Au), and to thank you for all the content you’ve been publishing lately, especially the short fics, I know you must be pretty busy and any extra content from you is a blessing! I continue to look forward to whatever you write next! 🌸❤️

Thank you so much, anon!!! Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ This ask is fairly old and I haven’t been publishing as much as I’d like lately, but my Thanksgiving break is coming up– and after that, a month long Christmas break! Hopefully I’ll be able to write more soon.