Omg I hope this doesn’t sound weird but I was looking through some Bleach imagines and I found the blog @arranc_r and as I read through the imagines I was like wow this is really similar to dixbolik-lovers’ writing style??? AND IT TURNS OUT IT’S YOU!!!! :D I was so pleasantly surprised!!

Admin Mawile: Yep! That is me!!! (ゝω・)ノ @arrancxr is my Bleach blog, and actually, I have a couple other fandom based blogs floating around too… I kind of have too many.

Also I’ve been considering linking to my main, mostly because I’ve been doing a lot of writing for other fandoms, and I’d love to be able to talk about things that aren’t relevant to my fandom specific blogs. If I did share my main, would anyone be interested in talking other fanfic there?  (。・ω・)

“Dragging themselves along the ground” (Bingo) reminded me of Ayato, Right after he almost drowns, he’s trying to quickly pull himself towards the Manor to prove even when he almost drowns he’s still the best. Idk Whatever you got for this one will be interesting! It could really work whatever fandom you want it too! (Reminded me of Etienne too, but he technically didn’t drag himself along the ground.) Have a frabjous day!

Admin Mawile: I already have something in mind for this prompt, but that you for the suggestion 😀 It’s a very good idea!!!

Opinions on Ruki please?

How I feel about this character

Admin Mawile: Eh, honestly Ruki has never been one of my favorites. It’s not because he’s not a good character, but because I just never have connected with him strongly enough. I will say that he’s a lovely character who has plenty of reasons for being likable, but I’ve never been very fond of him. He’s on my lowest tier of favorites, and I’m not crazy about writing for him, either. In my opinion, his best trait is his semi-decent relationship with his brothers. 

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Admin Mawile: As a mostly decent older brother, I honestly like his relationship with all three of the others. It’s just plain adorable that he goes out of his way to take care of them, especially after the… situation with the Sakamaki brothers. Ruki isn’t any nicer than any of the rest of them, but it’s still pretty sweet to know that he has some kind of genuine, sort of nice feelings down there, and that there are at least a few people that even a (admittedly not born) vampire will treat decently. 

My unpopular opinion about this character

Admin Mawile: I find Ruki to be pretty boring. He’s never interested me, and while I can’t say if that’s because I’m just not sympathetic enough towards him or because he’s just not my type, it still stands that Ruki is among my least favorites of the boys. I’ve never liked him, and while that one thing where an anon shipped me with him did make me see some potential, he’s still far from being a favorite of mine.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Admin Mawile: Weeeeeelll, for pain’s sake, I could think of a few things… For one, I see Ruki as missing his birth family horribly, and the right situation that reminds him a little too much of his parents could potentially put some cracks in that cool, collected personality of his. If I’m being nice, I’d like to see him in a situation where he can feel genuinely loved again, but if I’m being mean… well, Ruki does have a lot of psychological trip wires that could be used for maximum angst potential. I think in general, I’d just like to see him break down a bit, preferably where he actually has to deal with the feelings instead of shoving them back down where they can’t hurt him.

(Look, we all know I’m here to make the boys suffer a little… in a fun way! :D)

Reiji?

How I feel about this character

Admin Mawile: Reiji is good, honestly. He’s been one of my favorites for a long time, and I really like him. However, he’s also kind of terrible, and while all the boys are violent and manipulative in their own ways, Reiji is kind of a special level of cruel. I find his character to be very interesting, and the reflection of how his mother treated him versus how he treats other people is a fascinating concept. I also am fond of the idea that Reiji is pretty much one step away from some kind of breakdown and generally pretty unstable, despite how composed he seems to be. 

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Admin Mawile: His dynamic with any of his brothers is very interesting to me! I find it fascinating how Reiji simultaneously detests being stuck with them, yet pretty much willing takes up the role of mother hen and makes sure that the household is functioning. It might just be pride, but Reiji really goes out of his way to take care of things for his family, even though they do pretty much nothing for him in return…. Also, I like the idea that Reiji needs to feel needed to function properly, and even taking care of his brothers fills this role. 

My unpopular opinion about this character

Admin Mawile: Reiji is a better character than a lot of people give him credit for. He’s not perfect, of course, but he’s very interesting, and has a very interesting psychology to him. I don’t know if this is exactly unpopular, but I remember there being a lot of hate towards him in the earlier days of the fandom. Hopefully, that’s died down since then, but it still sort of feels like an unpopular opinion. Oh and! Unlike a lot of people I’ve seen, I’m not overly fond of the idea of Shuu and Reiji making up. Personally, I think that way too much has happened for that relationship to really be repaired. 

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Admin Mawile: Hmmm, well, a lot has happened over the course of DL, but I guess one thing that I haven’t seen enough of with Reiji (or really, any of the boys) is his weaker side. I mentioned earlier here that I see Reiji as pretty unstable, and seeing him fall apart a little more would be very entertaining, especially if he had to face some of his issues in the process. I’m all for torturing characters, and if I can make something painful, I probably will take the chance~~

@badthingshappenbingo

Prompt: Muzzled

Character(s): Human Au!Ruki, Reader

Warnings: Implied abuse, implied violence, general nastiness

An ego could be a dangerous, dangerous thing.

Ruki had some level of pride. He was a successful, intelligent young man, and that aline gave him reason to be confident in himself.

Unfortunately, that all meant nothing to a vampire.

You pushed him around as easily as if he was nothing, mocked him relentlessly, picked apart every weakness you found, and treated him like he was little more than a piece of prey. It was infuriating, and with everything you did to him, Ruki hated it more and more.

His mouth seemed to have little sense of self-preservation, though, and he’d snapped something along those lines at you, bitter and angry.

“Oh? So the human thinks he can talk back?” You’d smiled, voice going soft in that way that meant he was about to hurt, and Ruki had realized abruptly that he had made a mistake beyond measure.

The mansion’s dark, musty smell hung around you, old wood and dust. Ruki’s mouth had gone dry with your words, and in the tense moment that followed, he licked his lips nervously, fighting the urge to step back. He wasn’t stupid. He knew you’d be able to catch him in a second.

So Ruki had two options.

He could stand up for himself and refuse to back down, preserve some dignity, but probably get hurt for it. He could apologize, plead for forgiveness, and spare himself at the cost of his self worth.

Neither one sounded good, and Ruki had the sinking feeling that he’d just brought on something far out of his realm of control.

“I was stating a fact,” he said at last, “not trying to offend you.” Oh, how he hoped you’d miss the way he voice was starting to shake.

“How brave,” you cooed, smiling and baring your fangs.

(Ruki did everything possible to ignore how that smirk made his stomach go hot, his skin break out in a soft shiver.)

It only took an instant, and you were beside him, cold hand brushing against his cheek with a gentle caress. “You have quite the mouth on you, human. I think it’ll be necessary to make sure this doesn’t happen again.”

His stomach sunk, chest going frigid. Whatever that meant, Ruki already had a good feeling that he didn’t want to find out. Would you cut out his tongue? Would you sew his mouth shut so he could never speak again? It seemed like something out of a horror novel, but it was all too real.

“You’re so pretty when you’re afraid.”

Gently, you kissed his cheek.

You vanished out of sight for an instant, reappearing just as quickly, and Ruki noted with a growing sense of horror that you were holding something, metal and leather in your hands.

When you reached towards him, Ruki had to fight not to panic and pull away. He was still painfully certain you were about to hurt him.

(Shameful. Pathetic. He was cowering like a frightened child, and you’d barely done a thing to him yet. He should be so much stronger than this.)

His heart beating triple time in his chest, you told him with a cold voice to close his eyes. Ruki obeyed, hesitantly, hands shaking by his side, instinctively bracing himself for something that was about to hurt.

But instead, soft leather and cool metal closed in around his face. Something was pressed in between his teeth, just forcefully enough that he knew there was no way for him to resist. Straps were fastened around his chin and the back of his head, catching in his hair with little stings.

Ruki opened his eyes, saw dark metal around his jaw, and felt something like humiliated panic surge in his chest.

It was a muzzle.

Desperate protests came out as pathetic, muffled noises. Drool dripped down his chin as he tried to struggle against the bit lodged in his mouth. A horrified little sound escaped him in a moment of pure terror.

You’d muzzled him like a common animal, and there was a sense of shame like nothing Ruki had ever felt rising in his throat like tar.

“There we go!” you laughed. “Isn’t that better? Now you can’t talk back on accident.” Your expression was pure satisfaction, and Ruki knew immediately that you’d done this on purpose to humiliate him. “Now, I want you to thank me for making it easier for you to be good.”

Feeling as if he about to gag, but too afraid of what would happen if he didn’t obey, Ruki forced himself to choke down his pride.

What was supposed to be a “thank you” came out muffled and sloppy, muzzle making it impossible to form anything close to proper words. Another line of saliva dripped out of his mouth, hot and humiliating.

“Don’t you feel gross, drooling like an animal?” you asked, but the question was clearly said only to mock him.

Ruki ducked his head and felt his cheeks burn.

After a few minutes of making fun of him, you grabbed him by the shoulders roughly enough to bruise, spinning him around and forcing him to the other side of the room, where what Ruki saw made him whine in humiliation, closing his eyes before the image could sink in.

It was a mirror, and the sight of his own face, gagged and muzzled, was enough to make Ruki feel hot all over with shame.

This couldn’t be happening. You couldn’t be doing this. It was beyond cruel, beyond humiliating, and yet, as you ordered him to open his eyes, Ruki knew all too well that it was real.

“Look at you,” you crooned, leaning in close to his ear and lightly tugging on a strap. “Can’t even talk to defend yourself. You look pathetic, you know? Like some kind of filthy little pet.”

Shame burned in Ruki’s stomach, making him feel dizzy and weak. This was some kind of twisted nightmare, left at a monster’s mercy.

With no way to ever escape.

IMPORTANT: Life Updates

Admin Mawile: To be blunt, I’m starting college in a little over a month.

I don’t know how busy this is going to make me, or if I’ll be able to keep up anything resembling a schedule on this blog or any of my others. I’ve been homeschooled since 6th grade, so this is probably going to be a huge shock for me as well. Until I at least know how much time/effort school work is going to take, I can’t promise anything about if/when I’ll be able to write.

Of course, I’m not giving up on anything. I love to write, and I wouldn’t quit this blog under any circumstances. Things just might get real spotty for a while as I try to figure out what I’m doing next.

Thus, for this next month until school starts, I want to do lots of fun stuff here!

I got a job recently, so I don’t know if I’ll have the time and energy for events, but if anyone wants to talk to me, please do! I’d like to have an active, fun month full of interacting with everyone and writing fun things. I probably won’t be sticking to a schedule like I have in the past, either.

Thank you to everyone who’s followed me! I fully intend to keep this blog running for a long time to come! o(*’▽’*)/☆゚’

How would the S boys behave if their mothers were pretty much the same personality-wise but they loved their sons and were more affectionate? Like Cordelia was still a b*tch, Beatrix was still stoic and pushy and Christa was still insane, but they did love their sons and were more open about it?

Admin Mawile: I assume you’re implying that the abuse and such didn’t happen? And I’m also going to have to consider that Karl is decent here too, otherwise I’m sure he’d mess everything up. 

Shuu:

-Without being forced to study constantly and not being given any chance to be a kid, Shuu would have turned out a lot more well-adjusted. Assuming that the Edgar incident didn’t happen either, he wouldn’t be as depressed or traumatized, either. I can see this version of Shuu being a lot like his child self’; happy, cheerful, and nowhere near the tired Shuu we see in canon

Reiji:

-In a situation where he hadn’t been neglected and pitted against his brother, Reiji would probably turn out to be a capable, responsible young man who is much less bitter and cruel than the Reiji we see in canon. He wouldn’t be as desperate to prove himself as superior, for one, and wouldn’t have so much hatred and anger towards Shuu, either. 

Ayato:

-If his mother hadn’t pushed him to be the best from such a young age, Ayato would be a lot different. He’d be much less arrogant and competitive without a reason to feel like he has to be on top, and he’d probably actually be a rather sweet kid, if a bit hot-headed. Ayato is more misguided than malicious to begin with, and with his issues gone, he’d probably not be too bad. 

Kanato:

-It’s honestly kind of hard to imagine what Kanato would have been like if he hadn’t been horribly neglected, but I suppose the answer is that he’d be much more stable. I can imagine that he’d be less violent and possessive as well, since he wouldn’t feel like he had to fight for whatever attention he could get. He’d also probably be more mature, and behave less childishly. 

Laito:

-A situation where Cordelia didn’t abuse him would change Laito’s character completely. He’d have no reason to want to be seen as a “pervert”, and wouldn’t have the messed up ideas on love, either. I see this Laito as being genuinely happy and fun, much like the facade that canon!Laito tries to put on, just with a lot less darkness lurking underneath the surface. 

Subaru:

-Honestly, Christa did love Subaru in canon, I think, but if her issues were toned down to the point where she no longer did him as much damage, his mental state would be worlds better off. With no reason to hate himself or see himself as dirty or corrupted, Subaru’s self esteem issues would be pretty much fixed, and a healthier relationship with his mother would do him well.