The Kou one is done!! Laito is up next!! 😀 Hope you don’t mind that I decided to do these in short fic form~

Blindfolded, so he couldn’t use his magic eye to gain any kind of upper hand, you could see faint tear tracks along the flushed skin of Kou’s cheeks.

You’d spent the past ten minutes talking to him, breaking down every wall you could find, little by little pulling apart the glue that held together his carefully constructed facade. Kou had been left just helpless enough that he wouldn’t be able to keep himself together, and you’d slowly pulled away every bit of fakeness that he clung to, used to shield himself from the world.

His shoulders were shaking, little trembles spasming through him as he fought with whatever pride he had left not to cry. What you could see of his face was scrunched up, streaked with messy, wet tears.

When you lowered a hand to his face to brush away tears, he flinched.

“Poor thing. You didn’t want me to see this, did you?” you murmured, stroking your fingers over hot, damp skin. “Are you afraid?”

Kou sobbed, trying to curl up on himself, but you nudged his limbs back apart, not letting him hide. “O-Of course not,” he whined, voice fragile and weak. “I– I don’t–It feels like you’re taking me apart.” His hand found your wrist, squeezing, and he hesitantly nuzzled at your hip.

“Do you want me to stop?” you asked, and Kou froze. A little whine left his throat, and his hand tightened around your wrist, bruising.

“N-No! I’m, it’s–” he shuddered again, so hard you could feel it. “Please don’t leave me. I need you.” There was a raw emotion in his voice like nothing you’d ever heard from him, something vulnerable and open.

“Not gonna leave,” you crooned, leaning down to press soft little kisses onto what skin of his face you can reach. Kou whimpered at the touch, squirming, and when he reached up to tug you down to him, you went willingly. You let yourself be pulled back onto the bed, where Kou latched on.

You pulled him close to you, looping an arm around his skinny shoulders and letting him nuzzle into your chest. He clings to you like he needs the affection terribly, pressing his blindfolded face close.

“Good boy. Thank you so much for trusting me. I won’t leave, promise. I’ll be right here to take care of you,” you say, soft.

Kou whines, mumbles something into your skin about how broken he is, and your heart aches. This is the real him. At least, as close to it as you’ve ever gotten, and what you’re finding is heartbreaking.

What’s happened to him is so far beyond what you know how to deal with. Just getting to the root of the trauma like this is hard for both of you. You can’t imagine what you’d have to do to actually start fixing anything that you’ve found. You don’t know if Kou could take it.

“It’s okay if you’re broken,” you say, pausing for just a moment to press another kiss into his soft hair. “I’ll love you no matter what.”

Could you please do a sub Ayato where he is desperately trying to get the readers attention and begging them?

Done!!! 😀

“Hey! Come on! Are you really going to ignore me?” There was a desperate edge in Ayato’s voice, something almost fragile.

“Mhmm. And I assume you’re not going to backtalk me again either?” you ask, turning to face him. “I gave you rules, and you broke them. This is what happens.” As soon as you were done, you stood up and walked away, leaving him wide-eyed and choking over protests behind you.

You were thoroughly sick of the brattiness. For all Ayato said he was going to let you take control, he refused to shut up and actually let it happen. There were always protests, whining, disobedience at every turn.

And it wasn’t like he was just afraid. You could tell that it was on purpose, from the self-satisfied grin he gave you every time you gave up and let him bite you, allowing him to get away with being in charge for one more night just to spare yourself the trouble of a fight.

While it was pretty clear that the reason behind it was uncertainty, fear of losing his iron grip on what little power he had, you didn’t like it.

You knew well that Ayato thrived on attention and praise, that the few times you’d ever seen him close to losing it were when you’d treated him like something precious and loved.

And thus, you’d come up with the idea to do the exact opposite.

Footsteps followed you back to your room, and when you went to shut the door behind you, Ayato caught it, slipping into the room behind you with a look of something close to worry creasing his features. His hands clenched into fists, and his pretty green eyes narrowed, almost pouty.

“Fine. Please? Please quit ignoring me?” he asked, sounding more frustrated than pleading. You crooked a brow, then turned away again.

“What do I have to do?” he shouted, grabbing you by the shoulder and twisting you to face him. All you did was remove his hand and walk away, sitting down on your bed and pointedly not giving a reaction.

You were about to pull out a book when you felt a nudge at your leg.

Ayato had sat down on the floor, hugging your leg like a child. His face was hidden, ducked down far enough that you couldn’t see his expression.

“Please don’t do this,” he whined, a raw note in his voice that made something in your chest ache. “I’m sorry, okay? I’ll be good…” With those words, he squeezed you tighter, acting like he was afraid you were going to kick him away. For all you knew, he might really have been expecting it. This was, by far, the most vulnerable you’d ever seen the proud boy.

That was definitely far enough.

You leaned down, hugging what you could reach of his slender shoulders. “Okay, it’s okay. I’m going to pay attention to you now. All I wanted was an apology and some effort. You did so good.”

The face he looked up at you with was full of open need, something soft and fragile, that would have been so easy to shatter for good.

I’d love to see a service sub Reiji drabble where he is worshipping the reader and pampering her! Or maybe a needy, desperate and already pathetically attached Azusa trying to get the reader’s attention prompt?

Σ(ノ°▽°)ノ The Reiji part is now done!! This came out as kind of a weird combination of fluffy and sad, somehow. I doubt that’s what you wanted, but here’s hoping it’s good!

Slowly, as if he isn’t quite sure he can let himself do it, Reiji kneels in front of you, lowering his head just enough to look nervous.

“You’re… really going to go through with this?” His voice is unsteady, something like uncertainty filling the words. For once, he can’t meet your gaze, can’t face you with his usual dignity and composure.

“We agreed on it, didn’t we?” Reiji flinches at your words, a frown tugging at his lips. “You don’t have to worry about it. Just do what I say and let me take responsibility for it. No thinking, okay?” You brush your fingers over his cheek, reassuring. His eyes close, dark lashes soft against pale skin.

A few minutes later sees you in the nicest chair in your room, posture relaxed, yet commanding, leaving no room for Reiji to let himself resist. He’s just standing again, taking away the dishes from that night’s meal.

You figured out early that caretaking, even from such a submissive position, gives Reiji a sense of purpose that he struggles to find on his own. You haven’t had a chance to take full advantage of this until now, but giving orders while Reiji worlessly obeys is a heady moment. It’s not a stretch to assume that he’s just as affected by the little commands and kind words.

So hard for him to give up his pride, it had taken far too long to get to this point, where Reiji had willingly agreed to let you make the choices.

Even for a little bit. Even for a night like this.

First was dinner, then a manicure; little things that let him feel owned. It had to be safe, nothing major, but having him kneel quietly while you ate was, by itself, one of the more powerful moments you’d experienced.

Reiji returns, resuming his position beside your chair without having to be told. He learns quick, you both know, and when you aren’t looking for an excuse to resort to discipline, he’s nothing short of perfect for you. Even the tense look his features carried at first has melted away into an even calm.

When you reach out to stroke his hair, Reiji leans into it.

He’d never have done this before, even just weeks ago. You don’t know how deep into the mindset of not thinking, of trusting, of being yours he is, but at the very least, he’s ignoring his own sense of pride.

You’ve told him not to talk, to let himself relax and let you make the choices, and he obeys, even though you know it’s a struggle for him not to fight someone else’s control.

“You’re doing good, you know,” you mumble, absentmindedly petting his soft hair. “I’m proud of you for letting me do this.”

The little shudder that goes through him is impossible to miss.

There’s more you’ll have him do tonight. You don’t want to push anything, of course, but this is the most relaxed you’ve ever seen him, even through the tremble in his shoulders that neither of you can miss.

Admin Mawile: This is the Azusa one!!! The one for Reiji is up next~ Thank you so much for the request!! 😀

“Please… I’ve been good… so, please…” On his knees, Azusa nuzzled at your hand, murmuring soft words against the skin.

You pointedly refused to look at him, staring straight at your laptop.

At first, you would have thought this would be cruel. Azusa was always so desperate for attention; denying him felt like one of the worst things you could do. You’d figured out by now that having to beg for your attention made it all the sweeter for him when he finally got what he wanted.

Refusing to hurt him affected him almost as much. Making Azusa beg for every bit of affection you gave him in a scene got him more worked up than anything else you’d tried. His desperation was downright cute.

Pressing little kisses against your fingers, Azusa’s pretty eyes slid shut. He looked beyond needy, cheeks flushed a lovely shade of pink.

“Please…” he whimpered again, as if asking again would help him any. Instead of giving him any attention, you yanked your hand away, ignoring the way Azusa scrabbled after it with shaking fingers.

A soft whine left his lips, and he leaned forward, half into your lap.

The hard floor had to be hurting his skinny knees. You knew he liked the pain, but he always looked so fragile. You didn’t like seeing Azusa hurt.

Glancing towards him for just a second, you took in the desperate look in his eyes, something so attached, so vulnerable that it almost hurts to see. A little smile twitched at his lips as soon as you met his eyes, some soft whisper of hope shining through. He thinks the wait is finally over.

You were intending to turn away again, but with him looking at you like that, you can’t imagine anyone who could manage to do it.

“Alright. Are you going to be good now?” you ask, setting  your laptop aside and facing Azusa. That needy, devoted look falls over his face, the same always when he’s deep in the mindset of being yours.

“Yes… for you…” His speech is slower than usual, Azusa struggling to make the words come out while he’s so flustered.

“Hmmm… I don’t know if I believe you,” you say, tone teasing, and Azusa’s expression takes on an even more desperate look. He scoots forward, not caring how undignified he looks, and wraps his arms around your waist, burying his face in your stomach before you can stop him.

“I need you…” he mumbles, nuzzling at you softly. “I’ll do… anything…” The picture he makes is beyond precious, and you couldn’t bring yourself to go back to ignoring him even if you wanted to.

You run a hand through Azusa’s hair, caressing the soft strands.

“Okay, okay, you’ve earned it.” You let praise seep through into your tone. There’s no need to pretend to be cold, not now.

The noise Azusa makes can only be described as a whimper, skinny arms tightening around your midsection. You lean down, press a kiss onto the top of his head. He squeezes you like he’s afraid you’re going to pull away at any second, delighted that he’s finally getting attention.

You ease yourself down onto the floor and let him curl into your lap, pliant and needy and loving. This is exactly what he needs from you.

Admin Mawile: This is the Azusa one!!! The one for Reiji is up next~ Thank you so much for the request!! 😀

“Please… I’ve been good… so, please…” On his knees, Azusa nuzzled at your hand, murmuring soft words against the skin.

You pointedly refused to look at him, staring straight at your laptop.

At first, you would have thought this would be cruel. Azusa was always so desperate for attention; denying him felt like one of the worst things you could do. You’d figured out by now that having to beg for your attention made it all the sweeter for him when he finally got what he wanted.

Refusing to hurt him affected him almost as much. Making Azusa beg for every bit of affection you gave him in a scene got him more worked up than anything else you’d tried. His desperation was downright cute.

Pressing little kisses against your fingers, Azusa’s pretty eyes slid shut. He looked beyond needy, cheeks flushed a lovely shade of pink.

“Please…” he whimpered again, as if asking again would help him any. Instead of giving him any attention, you yanked your hand away, ignoring the way Azusa scrabbled after it with shaking fingers.

A soft whine left his lips, and he leaned forward, half into your lap.

The hard floor had to be hurting his skinny knees. You knew he liked the pain, but he always looked so fragile. You didn’t like seeing Azusa hurt.

Glancing towards him for just a second, you took in the desperate look in his eyes, something so attached, so vulnerable that it almost hurts to see. A little smile twitched at his lips as soon as you met his eyes, some soft whisper of hope shining through. He thinks the wait is finally over.

You were intending to turn away again, but with him looking at you like that, you can’t imagine anyone who could manage to do it.

“Alright. Are you going to be good now?” you ask, setting  your laptop aside and facing Azusa. That needy, devoted look falls over his face, the same always when he’s deep in the mindset of being yours.

“Yes… for you…” His speech is slower than usual, Azusa struggling to make the words come out while he’s so flustered.

“Hmmm… I don’t know if I believe you,” you say, tone teasing, and Azusa’s expression takes on an even more desperate look. He scoots forward, not caring how undignified he looks, and wraps his arms around your waist, burying his face in your stomach before you can stop him.

“I need you…” he mumbles, nuzzling at you softly. “I’ll do… anything…” The picture he makes is beyond precious, and you couldn’t bring yourself to go back to ignoring him even if you wanted to.

You run a hand through Azusa’s hair, caressing the soft strands.

“Okay, okay, you’ve earned it.” You let praise seep through into your tone. There’s no need to pretend to be cold, not now.

The noise Azusa makes can only be described as a whimper, skinny arms tightening around your midsection. You lean down, press a kiss onto the top of his head. He squeezes you like he’s afraid you’re going to pull away at any second, delighted that he’s finally getting attention.

You ease yourself down onto the floor and let him curl into your lap, pliant and needy and loving. This is exactly what he needs from you.

control, slipping through your fingers: first scene

Admin Mawile: And the first chapter of Reiji’s route is done!! It took me a little while cause I’ve been super busy with preparing to move, so hopefully it’s worth the wait!

To anyone who doesn’t already know, this fic takes place in my Sub Au, more information for which can be found on this blog. There’s going to be a route for each boy, and each route will be divided up into ten chapters.The chapters that I work on will be decided by a periodic Ko-Fi vote, which will also be done through this blog. (●⌒∇⌒●)

The warnings for this chapter include minor blood and violence, forced drugging, psychological abuse, and general DL stuff. Read carefully if any of this bothers you. 

Questions and comments will always be appreciated, and thank you so much for reading! ❤ (∩´∀`)∩

Fic below the cut!!!

You sleep for a while, dreaming of nothing. It’s not a restful sleep, and when you wake up, you feel even more tired than before.

Yawning, you get up and force yourself to unpack your things. The same scent hangs in the air of your room, unpleasant, and you feel vaguely uneasy even as you put things away, keeping yourself busy.

There’s no way you’d put it past the vampires to be watching you.

Everything in the room is nice, high quality, almost weirdly so, and you can’t help but wonder if you’re with some special family of vampires. If they have such things, that is. You don’t know anything about the creatures you’re living with, and you’re not sure you want to even try.

You don’t know if they’re going to kill you, if they’re going to try, but even the thought of what they could do doesn’t scare you like it should.

The room is more than big enough for everything you brought with you, and organizing what’s yours, making the space your own is already making you feel more calm. Like you have some measure of control.

You’re still not afraid. There’s a dark sense of resignation hanging over you, but you’re not afraid. The thought of being hurt or killed makes you more angry than frightened, furious that these beings already seem the sort to destroy a life just because they feel personally threatened.

The impression that they’re nothing but spoiled brats grows stronger the more you think about what you’ve seen of them so far.

Outside, the sky has gone dark.

There’s a knock at your door after a bit, steady and polite. You get up, open the door, and find an older man that you’ve never seen before outside of it. He introduces himself as a servant, and tells you that you’re wanted in the dining room, to come as soon as you are able to.

You nod, agree, and the man vanishes as quickly as he appeared, fading into the shadows in a way that’s completely inhuman.

Instead of focusing on it, you double check that your things are arranged how you want them, then leave the room, the door closing behind you with a rather ominous sound. The dining room, the servant said.

It’s not exactly hard to find your way to where you’re wanted, even if the twists and turns of the mansion are beyond confusing, and after a short walk through dark corridors and musty smelling rooms, you arrive.

The dining room is large and dimly lit. It’s furnished richly, and there’s a table with twelve chairs in the center of the room. It’s hard not to wonder why so many chairs are needed, since there doesn’t seem to be more than the six boys and some inhuman servants in the mansion. The room itself is nice, but as always in the house, you get an unpleasant feeling from it.

There’s food on the table, you note, just one portion, placed in front of one of the side facing chairs like it’s waiting for someone.

“So you’ve arrived,” a voice says from somewhere behind you.

Resisting the instinct to jolt, you calmly turn around. You already know better than to show fear in front of monsters like these.

Reiji stands behind you, posture so straight it could put a ruler to shame. His clothes are as neat as they were earlier, lines clean and sharp, and every part of him looks arranged to perfection, ordered.

“I was expecting you to be slightly more punctual,” he says, and his voice is calm barely hiding disdain. You bristle a bit, annoyed with his tone and the patronizing edge to it. “We’ll have to fix that later, I suppose. Now, have a seat. You will be having your meals here, understood?”

Making a fuss will only get you in trouble, so you sit obediently, trying to act like you don’t wish you could just turn and leave.

You’d sort of thought that Reiji was the rational one, but between the way he speaks to you and the odd glint in his eyes, you’re finding that you don’t have any more trust for him than any of the rest of them.

Reiji takes the seat opposite you, and spends a moment staring at you like you’re something particularly interesting, some kind of specimen.

“You’re not afraid, are you?” he asks eventually, and there’s a note of something you can’t place in his voice. You can imagine that it’s odd to them that you don’t show fear, annoying as it is that they all fuss over it.

“I’m not,” you reply, keeping your response simple and polite. You have the feeling that this one wouldn’t take well to rudeness.

Another moment passes, Reiji staring at you with cold eyes. It feels like he’s taking you in, trying to make sense of why the human doesn’t fear him, and you find yourself slightly annoyed by the judging, analyzing gaze.

“I instruct you to remember your place,” he says calmly. “You are the only human in this mansion, and harm may very well come to you if you act out of line.” There’s something in his voice that implies that he’ll be the source of said harm. Your annoyance spikes a bit at the arrogance.

“Now,” he continues, “as for what will be done with you. My brothers and I attend night school, but considering your age, it would be silly to expect you to. You will be expected to keep a nocturnal schedule, but otherwise, you will have much time to yourself. I’ll go over where you are allowed and not allowed to go, and what things you may do.”

Reiji launches into something that feels disturbingly like a lecture, listing off what you’ll be expected to do while you’re here.

His instructions for you are only interrupted by the occasional irritated comment about how poor your posture is, about how you need to show that you’re listening better, and you feel more annoyed by the second.

When he finally finishes, he looks at you like he’s expected you to retain every word. “Any questions?” he asks, and he says it like you’re something so simple he’d have to repeat himself. You bite the inside of your cheek to stifle something rude and respond that you understood.

“Good. Listening properly is a valuable skill for a lady to have.” Something about Reiji’s tone gets under your skin. It’s patronizing, but not openly so, and you don’t quite know how to respond.

Fighting back would obviously get you killed, but sitting here and taking it is also a highly unpleasant option.

You take the closest thing to a midpoint you can think of, meeting Reiji’s eyes without a hint of fear, keeping your posture almost as straight as his, and refusing to let him intimidate you for even an instant.

Reiji’s gaze is sharp and collected, not a hint of emotion slipping past whatever carefully constructed defences he has in place.

For just a moment, you wonder what he could be hiding.

“That sort of disrespect will not stand, you know,” Reiji says, standing. “You will be expected to recognize your position in this place and act accordingly. Such a prideful expression will only serve to bring you trouble.” He’s threatening you, you can feel it, even through cool words.

Reiji’s speech is polite, but his words are unpleasant and dripping with superiority. You’re already getting the impression that he conceals disdain with propriety and refinement, keeping his true feelings neatly hidden behind a veil of proper words. It’s annoying already. Dealing with his posturing is unpleasant, and you’ve barely been there for a day.

“I’ll keep that in mind,” you reply, polite as you can manage. “Thank you for the warning.” You see a flicker of something in Reiji’s eyes.

The conversation comes to an end nonetheless, and Reiji vanishes from the room in a way that you can only imagine is meant to frighten you. Instead, you barely resist rolling your eyes at the failed intimidation.

You have absolutely no idea what to do with yourself now. Reiji gave you a long, detailed list of what was permitted, but it wasn’t much.

You get the feeling that they have no idea how to keep you occupied.

Actually, you get the feeling that anyone who has been here in the past didn’t make it long. The vampires seem downright predatory, and you wouldn’t put it past them to have killed whoever entered their home after they became more of a nuisance than they were worth.

It’s not unlikely that you’ll be next. You’ve resigned yourself to that idea already. It doesn’t scare you. It still doesn’t. There’s nothing you can imagine them doing that will make you feel differently.

The worst they can do is hurt your body. You won’t let them force their way any deeper than that, no matter what they try to do to you.

You decide that the best thing to do is eat the meal that was left for you, hope for the best that it wasn’t drugged, and figure out what you’re going to do next after that. The food itself tastes good, with no signs of it being off, and it appears to be as normal as anything you could expect.

After you’re done, the best thing to do seems to be having a look around the house. You know where you’re “allowed” to go now, and it’s not like you can think of anything else to do all alone in a mansion.

You take a deep breath, remember that you have to keep yourself calm, and set off into the nearest dark hallway you can find.

After wandering around the house for a while, searching for anything decent to do, you figure out that you are truly and thoroughly bored.

The mansion is old and richly furnished, fancy, but dull. There’s an odd smell in the air that you can’t place, something sickly and unpleasant, and the atmosphere is dark and unhappy. It’s downright repulsive.

Some unknown amount of time passes like that. There aren’t clocks on the walls, and the couple of large grandfather clocks you find appear to be stopped. It’s disconcerting, and you try not to think about how much time you might have spent walking in circles, lost in confusing hallways.

You’re more frustrated than anything, and while you vaguely recognize that you should be afraid, all you feel is irritated resignation.

Finally, you stumble upon what looks like a sitting room, empty and musty smelling. Or, you think it’s empty until you notice one of the vampires stretched out on a couch, shoes kicked up over the armrest. It’s the blonde one, Shuu, eyes closed and earbuds in, seemingly ignoring the world.

You’re about to leave, avoid getting into any more trouble, when one blue eye cracks open lazily. “You, human, get over here,” he mumbles, sounding half asleep. You bite the inside of your mouth and obey.

“Yes? Did you need something?” you ask politely. You don’t want to make more trouble for yourself, even through the anger filling you.

It only takes an instant, and you’re swept off your feet, tugged down and pressed to Shuu’s chest. You didn’t so much as see him move, and he’s strong, dangerously so, where his arms are around your shoulders. Up close, he’s cold even through his clothes, feeling more like a corpse than anything alive. It’s disgusting, and you fight the urge to squirm away.

“Heh, even though you say you’re not afraid, you’re not fighting me, are you?” he asks, and you almost roll your eyes at the line.

“Of course not. You’re going to do what you want regardless; why would I make more trouble for myself?” Your smile drops, and your words come out more annoyed than you would have wanted, bitter.

Shuu just squeezes you tighter, presses his head into the crook of your neck, and bites down.

Pain shoots through you like fire, burning every nerve that it hits. You jerk, nails digging into Shuu’s arm as you struggle to stay still. As much as you want to hit him, you have the feeling it would end badly.

The bite hurts, but it’s bearable, and you almost laugh at the idea that this is the worst their fangs can do. You can take this. You’ll make it.

You get increasingly lightheaded as Shuu drains you, lapping at the fresh wound with a cold tongue. Fists clenching in his jacket, you resist the urge to shove him off of you. After the initial rush of pain, all you’re feeling is a dull ache, easily manageable, and whatever fear you might have felt is replaced with annoyance when Shuu keeps feeding from you.

Eventually, he pulls away. One last lick at your neck, and he’s backing off, grip on you not loosening a bit. His tongue flicks out over his lips, and he grins with something like smugness, superiority in his eyes.

“It’s nice to have such easy prey. For once, I’ve got a girl who doesn’t try to struggle…” he murmurs, hand tightening on the small of your back.

“So, are you afraid yet?” His cool breath tickles your neck.

“No, I’m not,” you say bluntly. You can feel the way Shuu freezes.

“You’re a weird one,” he says, something unidentifiable in his tone. “Whatever. It’s not like it’s my problem if you’re not afraid of us. You’ll get yourself killed all on your own if you keep that up.”

With that, he shuts his eyes again and goes back to ignoring you. You raise your hand, feel blood at your neck, and barely hold back a glare.

Since it appears that you’ve been dismissed, you get up and leave, forcing yourself to ignore the way the bite wound throbs. It doesn’t hurt that bad. You can take it. You’re still not afraid, and now you know exactly what the monsters you’re stuck with will do to you when they feed.

With nothing else to do, you go back to your room. You find the way well enough, remembering what paths you took through the mansion.

The pink room is as unwelcoming as ever, and even as you flop down on the bed, you feel vaguely uncomfortable. There’s still annoyance running through you, and in a moment of frustration, you punch one of the pillows.

It doesn’t make you feel any better.

More than ever, you’re reminded that you’re stuck here with six monsters, left as little more than a blood bag and forced victim of their whims. A headache pounds at your temples, some combination of anger and exhaustion making every part of you ache. It’s disgusting.

Each one of them seems to be terrible in his own way, and if even the lazy one is willing to drag you down and bite, you can only imagine what the others are going to be like. The very thought is almost sickening.

Well, it’s not like there’s anything you can do about it. You’re not exactly unbothered, but it’s not like you can’t handle it.

You settle in underneath the heavy covers of the pink bed. You’re still feeling lightheaded, and at this point, you think a nap will do you good. Considering the blood loss, you’d be willing to bet that you need one. Who knows when you’ll be bitten again, when you’ll wind up even more drained.

When you fall asleep, it’s a little more like passing out than resting, a deep, unpleasant sleep taking you within minutes.

There’s someone standing over you when you wake up, and it take everything you have not to bolt upright and punch them.

Instead, you take a deep breath, open your eyes, and look up at Reiji standing there, a glare on his face. You almost feel yourself sigh. You do not want to deal with this again, not another one of them so soon.

You sit up and meet his eyes. “Can I help you?” you ask, still trying to be polite, even through the exhaustion weighing you down.

Reiji makes a disgusted face, one eyebrow crooking up in obvious contempt. “That is not the proper way to greet someone,” he says, looking at you like you’re stupid, and you bristle a bit. You’d sort of forgotten how annoying this one’s ego could be, and you still don’t like it.

You bite your lip to prevent yourself from saying anything rude and stay quiet. You don’t think you can open your mouth without snapping at him, and you’re well aware that that would just get you into trouble.

“On your feet, now,” Reiji orders with a condescending tone. “I expect you to be upright and paying attention when I speak to you.”

Reluctantly, you stand up, forcing your face into something that isn’t obviously annoyed. When you’d talked to Reiji before, he didn’t seem so bad, but you’re starting to realize that he’s as much of a pain as the rest.

Once you’re up, Reiji’s eyes immediately flicker to your neck.

“I see you’ve already allowed yourself to be bitten. How unseemly. It’s only been a day, and you’re throwing yourself at one of my brothers,” he says, and you feel your patience snap. He’s absolutely infuriating.

“I didn’t throw myself at anyone,” you say, meeting his gaze without a flinch. Reiji’s eyes narrow, and you feel like you may have made a mistake.

“How brave of you. I wouldn’t have expected you to be so foolish as to talk back to me, and yet, you have surpassed my expectations for human stupidity,” Reiji’s tone is dripping with disdain, and his words are the harshest you’ve heard from him yet. “That sort of behavior will have to be dealt with. I will not tolerate such rudeness from a mere human girl.”

He steps forward, and places one cool hand against your chin, tilting your head and taking in what he surely expects to be a terrified expression. You do your best not to glare, to not do anything that will anger him more.

Suddenly, Reiji’s expression changes.

“Ah, I see you’ve been associating with the good-for-nothing.” His voice is lower than before, something dangerous in his tone.

You can tell that if you press right now, you’ll get yourself into more trouble than you want. You’re very aware that you’re living with monsters, and one wrong move could cost you your life around them.

There’s something very wrong in this situation, in the way Reiji’s looking at you, and despite all better instincts, you make a split-second decision to stand up for yourself. You stay where you are, meet his gaze, and refuse to falter, keeping your posture as assertive as you can.

You don’t say anything, just wait for Reiji to make the next move. He seems to be analyzing your response. Perhaps waiting for you to act.

After a moment, Reiji turns away. The motion, on the surface, looks like some kind of surrender, but you know better. It’s calculated, trying to set you off your guard and make you think you’ve won.

“I see you are rather fearless,” he says, a note of irritation barely perceptible in his voice. “How impressive.” His voice is condescending, measured, and you tense. “This conversation will be continued at a later date. Come to the third floor study later tonight. You will be expected to be there, so I would not recommend trying to ignore me.”

It’s a trap. You can tell from the way Reiji is talking that he’s plotting something, and you don’t like it. Who knows what he’ll try.

Even so, you don’t really see how you can refuse. You don’t imagine that Reiji would take it well if you outright tell him know. You’re going to have to face whatever he comes up with. Once again, annoyance boils in your veins. He really does think he can do whatever he wants to you.

Reiji leaves, and you’re left alone in your room, wondering what he’s going to try to do to you. You’re vaguely disgusted, more annoyed than anything, and sort of wishing you could just have told him to fuck off.

Yeah, like you’d ever survive that one.

Even though you still feel tired, still feel the exhaustion of blood loss weighing you down, you decide to take another walk around the mansion.

You probably need to calm down before you have to deal with Reiji again, before you have to willingly walk into what you know is a trap. The more you think about it, the more angry you feel.

That walk had better do your temper some good.

The third floor study isn’t hard to find. You feel like you’ve been figuring out the layout of the mansion already, and it’s not a struggle to track down the room that Reiji ordered you to come to.

As you stand outside the door, knowing that Reiji can tell you’re there, you take a deep breath, praying that you won’t do anything stupid.

Forcing your expression into something neutral, something that doesn’t betray how badly you wish you could leave, you push open the door and step inside. You know this is going to be a mistake already.

Immediately, a chemical scent hits you. The room appears to be normal, as richly furnished as anywhere else in the house, mostly composed of a wall of bookshelves and a few soft-looking chairs. There’s something ominous in the air, though, and when you notice Reiji sitting stiffly in one of the chairs facing the door, that feeling of dread only increases.

There’s tea in front of him; two cups, steaming. You understand instantly what he’s going to try to do to you.

That tea is, without a doubt, laced with something.

Reiji orders you to have a seat, and you obey, sitting opposite him in a position that leaves you unable to see much of the room but him. You force yourself not to make a face that will give away how irritated you are.

“I see you’re relatively on time,” Reiji says, and there’s open disdain in his voice. “Your punctuality will have to be improved, understand? I have no tolerance for things that are not perfect.” It’s arrogant. He’s arrogant. You wish you could smack the smug look right off his impassive face.

“Mhmm,” you say instead, “I’ll try to do better next time.”

You’re faking, containing yourself through willpower alone, and when Reiji’s mouth crooks into a little smirk, you can feel your eye twitch.

“Good. Compliance is to your benefit, in this house. Now, please have some tea. I was kind enough to make you a portion as well, you understand.” Reiji picks up his own cup and has a sip, as if to show you that there’s nothing wrong with it. You’re well aware that it’s a ruse.

You decide then and there that you’re going to meet whatever he has planned for you head on. You lift your own cup to your lips with no fear.

The tea tastes exactly how you would have expected; chemical and harsh, even through the soft aroma it gives off. The taste slides down over your tongue, making your lips tingle, and you swallow it willingly.

It’s not like you can back out. He’ll hurt you regardless of what you do, and you’ll at least be able to live with yourself if you face it.

Reiji keeps talking, saying something more about your manners, or lack thereof, and you focus on the way your head starts to spin. It’s probably not poison in the tea. You don’t expect Reiji to kill you off so easily, but whatever it is is likely some kind of unpleasant drug to make you suffer.

There’s a numb feeling creeping over your limbs, through your head. It doesn’t hurt, which you take as a good sign, but it’s worrying nonetheless. Your best guess is that Reiji wants to see you squirm before something.

“Are you feeling alright?” Reiji asks, and you can hear the mockery in his tone. You wish you could shrug off the drug just to spite him.

“I know you drugged it,” you reply, but your tongue feels like lead in your mouth. A flash of something almost like surprise flashes through Reiji’s eyes. You imagine that not many people have figured him out so quickly.

“And yet you still drank it,” Reiji smirks, as if you had any kind of choice. “What a foolish girl you are. Did you expect I’d stop you? Save you? Of course not. You will serve as a fine test subject for what I’ve been working on. Let’s just hope it doesn’t kill you too quickly.”

He’s bluffing. You can tell already. Reiji’s words are cruel, but his voice lacks the venom that would be there if he really intended to end you.

Your mouth has gone completely numb, your body flopping against the chair like a rag doll. You want to reply to him, but you can’t make any part of you work, so instead, you take a breath and let yourself relax.

What’s going to happen next will hurt, but you can take it.

Reiji stands, crosses the couple steps to be beside you, and looks down at you with something almost predatory. He’s trying to be frightening. It isn’t working. All you feel is anger at his arrogance, fury that makes you wish you could stand up and slap the smirk off his face. He’s not going to scare you, no matter what kinds of tricks and torment he tries.

One cold hand closes around your wrist, dragging you out of the chair with surprising strength. Reiji hauls you to your feet like you weigh nothing. Your legs shake, unable to hold your weight, and you dangle from his grip.

“How pathetic. You can’t even stand. I suppose it’s not so easy to face me now, is it?” Gross. He really thinks he’s going to scare you like this? “I warned you that compliance will be vital in this household, and trying to assert yourself was a truly unwise decision on your part.”

He tugs you to his chest, moving your limp body with ease. You swallow fury and wish you could spit in his smug face.

Supporting you with ease, Reiji leans down. You know what’s coming long before fangs sink into the soft skin of your neck. The pain is familiar, no different than when Shuu bit you, and once again, it’s bearable.

Reiji seems to assume that you’re too drugged to respond. He laughs against your neck, muttering something about how pathetic you are when you’re helpless before him. He bites again, a bit further up, and again, finally settling on the third wound. You can feel yourself being drained.

There’s blood dripping down your neck, a cold tongue on your skin, and a numbness all through you that blocks out everything but the pain.

You’re getting dizzy, and not just from the drug.

“I expect you to never approach that good-for-nothing again,” Reiji finally says, voice against your skin. “He’s a poor influence, and I will not tolerate any association with him.” You notice something as he speaks.

There’s something off in Reiji’s voice, something almost unstable. Perhaps this is some kind of weak point for him, something raw?
It’s the first weakness you’ve seen from him yet.

Reiji feeds from you until your head is spinning. You imagine that he’s trying to make it hurt. His fangs are painful, but you can withstand it. He’s going to have to try harder than this if he wants you to break.

When he’s finally done, he drops you, abruptly allowing your body to crumple to the floor. Hard wood hits your knees, your stomach, your head, and you would wince if you could move. Reiji looks down at you with confidence, as if he’s certain he’s just shattered you. There’s blood around his mouth, ruining the composed image he’s surely trying for.

You’re starting to feel a little less numb, you realize. You did only have one swallow of the tea, and it’s possible that the drug is starting wear off already. Twitching your fingers, you realize that you can move again.

“How unseemly,” Reiji says, nudging you with one polished shoe. “You look quite pathetic like this, you know. This is why we’ll have to work on your manners some, so that things like this don’t have to happen again.” Disgusting. He really thinks that this is going to give him control.

You swallow, try to feel how much you can move. More and more control is returning to you with every passing moment.

You sit up, then stand, forcing yourself to feet with willpower alone. Reiji takes a step back, and you wonder if you’re actually surprising him. Once on your feet, you meet his eyes, muster all the resistance you have.

“Is this the worst you can do to me?”

For a fraction of a second, Reiji’s eyes widen. You stare him down, allowing anger to seep into your gaze.

It’s unlikely that he’s ever had prey that fought back as much as you. You would guess that he’s caught at least a little off guard. From his behavior alone, you can assume that he’s used to being in control. What a shame that his tactics aren’t going to make you cower.

Something in Reiji’s face twitches. He’s annoyed, you can tell. “Very well,” he says, biting out the words. “We’ll see if that attitude of yours lasts. You may return to your room. Hopefully, you’ve learned something today.”

Oh, you have. You’ve learned for a fact that these vampires can’t scare you. You’re starting to think that this has been a legitimate effort to do so.

When you leave the room, you force yourself not to shake. You’re not going to show any weakness in front of Reiji, not after what he tried. Blood is pooling at the wounds on your neck, hot and sticky on your skin.  

You walk back to your room fuming. The longer what Reiji did to you sinks in, the more infuriated you feel. When you think of how many people he must have tried this on, you wish you could have done something back to him. If you could have gotten away with it, you probably would have.

The door to your room shuts behind you, and you finally allow yourself to stumble. You feel drained, empty, and pain throbs through every wound.

You flop back onto your bed, curling up a bit and breathing deep.

You’re going to make it. You’re not going to break. Even if it kills you, you’re going to stand up to Reiji and the rest of them Even if it means you have to do it with your dying breath.

Thinking of the self-assured smirk on Reiji’s face, of the note in his voice when he spoke of Shuu, of drugged tea and cowardly, manipulative tactics meant to scare you into compliance, you fall asleep, more passing out than anything.

This isn’t going to be the end.

control, slipping through your fingers: first scene

Admin Mawile: And the first chapter of Reiji’s route is done!! It took me a little while cause I’ve been super busy with preparing to move, so hopefully it’s worth the wait!

To anyone who doesn’t already know, this fic takes place in my Sub Au, more information for which can be found on this blog. There’s going to be a route for each boy, and each route will be divided up into ten chapters.The chapters that I work on will be decided by a periodic Ko-Fi vote, which will also be done through this blog. (●⌒∇⌒●)

The warnings for this chapter include minor blood and violence, forced drugging, psychological abuse, and general DL stuff. Read carefully if any of this bothers you. 

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Fic below the cut!!!

You sleep for a while, dreaming of nothing. It’s not a restful sleep, and when you wake up, you feel even more tired than before.

Yawning, you get up and force yourself to unpack your things. The same scent hangs in the air of your room, unpleasant, and you feel vaguely uneasy even as you put things away, keeping yourself busy.

There’s no way you’d put it past the vampires to be watching you.

Everything in the room is nice, high quality, almost weirdly so, and you can’t help but wonder if you’re with some special family of vampires. If they have such things, that is. You don’t know anything about the creatures you’re living with, and you’re not sure you want to even try.

You don’t know if they’re going to kill you, if they’re going to try, but even the thought of what they could do doesn’t scare you like it should.

The room is more than big enough for everything you brought with you, and organizing what’s yours, making the space your own is already making you feel more calm. Like you have some measure of control.

You’re still not afraid. There’s a dark sense of resignation hanging over you, but you’re not afraid. The thought of being hurt or killed makes you more angry than frightened, furious that these beings already seem the sort to destroy a life just because they feel personally threatened.

The impression that they’re nothing but spoiled brats grows stronger the more you think about what you’ve seen of them so far.

Outside, the sky has gone dark.

There’s a knock at your door after a bit, steady and polite. You get up, open the door, and find an older man that you’ve never seen before outside of it. He introduces himself as a servant, and tells you that you’re wanted in the dining room, to come as soon as you are able to.

You nod, agree, and the man vanishes as quickly as he appeared, fading into the shadows in a way that’s completely inhuman.

Instead of focusing on it, you double check that your things are arranged how you want them, then leave the room, the door closing behind you with a rather ominous sound. The dining room, the servant said.

It’s not exactly hard to find your way to where you’re wanted, even if the twists and turns of the mansion are beyond confusing, and after a short walk through dark corridors and musty smelling rooms, you arrive.

The dining room is large and dimly lit. It’s furnished richly, and there’s a table with twelve chairs in the center of the room. It’s hard not to wonder why so many chairs are needed, since there doesn’t seem to be more than the six boys and some inhuman servants in the mansion. The room itself is nice, but as always in the house, you get an unpleasant feeling from it.

There’s food on the table, you note, just one portion, placed in front of one of the side facing chairs like it’s waiting for someone.

“So you’ve arrived,” a voice says from somewhere behind you.

Resisting the instinct to jolt, you calmly turn around. You already know better than to show fear in front of monsters like these.

Reiji stands behind you, posture so straight it could put a ruler to shame. His clothes are as neat as they were earlier, lines clean and sharp, and every part of him looks arranged to perfection, ordered.

“I was expecting you to be slightly more punctual,” he says, and his voice is calm barely hiding disdain. You bristle a bit, annoyed with his tone and the patronizing edge to it. “We’ll have to fix that later, I suppose. Now, have a seat. You will be having your meals here, understood?”

Making a fuss will only get you in trouble, so you sit obediently, trying to act like you don’t wish you could just turn and leave.

You’d sort of thought that Reiji was the rational one, but between the way he speaks to you and the odd glint in his eyes, you’re finding that you don’t have any more trust for him than any of the rest of them.

Reiji takes the seat opposite you, and spends a moment staring at you like you’re something particularly interesting, some kind of specimen.

“You’re not afraid, are you?” he asks eventually, and there’s a note of something you can’t place in his voice. You can imagine that it’s odd to them that you don’t show fear, annoying as it is that they all fuss over it.

“I’m not,” you reply, keeping your response simple and polite. You have the feeling that this one wouldn’t take well to rudeness.

Another moment passes, Reiji staring at you with cold eyes. It feels like he’s taking you in, trying to make sense of why the human doesn’t fear him, and you find yourself slightly annoyed by the judging, analyzing gaze.

“I instruct you to remember your place,” he says calmly. “You are the only human in this mansion, and harm may very well come to you if you act out of line.” There’s something in his voice that implies that he’ll be the source of said harm. Your annoyance spikes a bit at the arrogance.

“Now,” he continues, “as for what will be done with you. My brothers and I attend night school, but considering your age, it would be silly to expect you to. You will be expected to keep a nocturnal schedule, but otherwise, you will have much time to yourself. I’ll go over where you are allowed and not allowed to go, and what things you may do.”

Reiji launches into something that feels disturbingly like a lecture, listing off what you’ll be expected to do while you’re here.

His instructions for you are only interrupted by the occasional irritated comment about how poor your posture is, about how you need to show that you’re listening better, and you feel more annoyed by the second.

When he finally finishes, he looks at you like he’s expected you to retain every word. “Any questions?” he asks, and he says it like you’re something so simple he’d have to repeat himself. You bite the inside of your cheek to stifle something rude and respond that you understood.

“Good. Listening properly is a valuable skill for a lady to have.” Something about Reiji’s tone gets under your skin. It’s patronizing, but not openly so, and you don’t quite know how to respond.

Fighting back would obviously get you killed, but sitting here and taking it is also a highly unpleasant option.

You take the closest thing to a midpoint you can think of, meeting Reiji’s eyes without a hint of fear, keeping your posture almost as straight as his, and refusing to let him intimidate you for even an instant.

Reiji’s gaze is sharp and collected, not a hint of emotion slipping past whatever carefully constructed defences he has in place.

For just a moment, you wonder what he could be hiding.

“That sort of disrespect will not stand, you know,” Reiji says, standing. “You will be expected to recognize your position in this place and act accordingly. Such a prideful expression will only serve to bring you trouble.” He’s threatening you, you can feel it, even through cool words.

Reiji’s speech is polite, but his words are unpleasant and dripping with superiority. You’re already getting the impression that he conceals disdain with propriety and refinement, keeping his true feelings neatly hidden behind a veil of proper words. It’s annoying already. Dealing with his posturing is unpleasant, and you’ve barely been there for a day.

“I’ll keep that in mind,” you reply, polite as you can manage. “Thank you for the warning.” You see a flicker of something in Reiji’s eyes.

The conversation comes to an end nonetheless, and Reiji vanishes from the room in a way that you can only imagine is meant to frighten you. Instead, you barely resist rolling your eyes at the failed intimidation.

You have absolutely no idea what to do with yourself now. Reiji gave you a long, detailed list of what was permitted, but it wasn’t much.

You get the feeling that they have no idea how to keep you occupied.

Actually, you get the feeling that anyone who has been here in the past didn’t make it long. The vampires seem downright predatory, and you wouldn’t put it past them to have killed whoever entered their home after they became more of a nuisance than they were worth.

It’s not unlikely that you’ll be next. You’ve resigned yourself to that idea already. It doesn’t scare you. It still doesn’t. There’s nothing you can imagine them doing that will make you feel differently.

The worst they can do is hurt your body. You won’t let them force their way any deeper than that, no matter what they try to do to you.

You decide that the best thing to do is eat the meal that was left for you, hope for the best that it wasn’t drugged, and figure out what you’re going to do next after that. The food itself tastes good, with no signs of it being off, and it appears to be as normal as anything you could expect.

After you’re done, the best thing to do seems to be having a look around the house. You know where you’re “allowed” to go now, and it’s not like you can think of anything else to do all alone in a mansion.

You take a deep breath, remember that you have to keep yourself calm, and set off into the nearest dark hallway you can find.

After wandering around the house for a while, searching for anything decent to do, you figure out that you are truly and thoroughly bored.

The mansion is old and richly furnished, fancy, but dull. There’s an odd smell in the air that you can’t place, something sickly and unpleasant, and the atmosphere is dark and unhappy. It’s downright repulsive.

Some unknown amount of time passes like that. There aren’t clocks on the walls, and the couple of large grandfather clocks you find appear to be stopped. It’s disconcerting, and you try not to think about how much time you might have spent walking in circles, lost in confusing hallways.

You’re more frustrated than anything, and while you vaguely recognize that you should be afraid, all you feel is irritated resignation.

Finally, you stumble upon what looks like a sitting room, empty and musty smelling. Or, you think it’s empty until you notice one of the vampires stretched out on a couch, shoes kicked up over the armrest. It’s the blonde one, Shuu, eyes closed and earbuds in, seemingly ignoring the world.

You’re about to leave, avoid getting into any more trouble, when one blue eye cracks open lazily. “You, human, get over here,” he mumbles, sounding half asleep. You bite the inside of your mouth and obey.

“Yes? Did you need something?” you ask politely. You don’t want to make more trouble for yourself, even through the anger filling you.

It only takes an instant, and you’re swept off your feet, tugged down and pressed to Shuu’s chest. You didn’t so much as see him move, and he’s strong, dangerously so, where his arms are around your shoulders. Up close, he’s cold even through his clothes, feeling more like a corpse than anything alive. It’s disgusting, and you fight the urge to squirm away.

“Heh, even though you say you’re not afraid, you’re not fighting me, are you?” he asks, and you almost roll your eyes at the line.

“Of course not. You’re going to do what you want regardless; why would I make more trouble for myself?” Your smile drops, and your words come out more annoyed than you would have wanted, bitter.

Shuu just squeezes you tighter, presses his head into the crook of your neck, and bites down.

Pain shoots through you like fire, burning every nerve that it hits. You jerk, nails digging into Shuu’s arm as you struggle to stay still. As much as you want to hit him, you have the feeling it would end badly.

The bite hurts, but it’s bearable, and you almost laugh at the idea that this is the worst their fangs can do. You can take this. You’ll make it.

You get increasingly lightheaded as Shuu drains you, lapping at the fresh wound with a cold tongue. Fists clenching in his jacket, you resist the urge to shove him off of you. After the initial rush of pain, all you’re feeling is a dull ache, easily manageable, and whatever fear you might have felt is replaced with annoyance when Shuu keeps feeding from you.

Eventually, he pulls away. One last lick at your neck, and he’s backing off, grip on you not loosening a bit. His tongue flicks out over his lips, and he grins with something like smugness, superiority in his eyes.

“It’s nice to have such easy prey. For once, I’ve got a girl who doesn’t try to struggle…” he murmurs, hand tightening on the small of your back.

“So, are you afraid yet?” His cool breath tickles your neck.

“No, I’m not,” you say bluntly. You can feel the way Shuu freezes.

“You’re a weird one,” he says, something unidentifiable in his tone. “Whatever. It’s not like it’s my problem if you’re not afraid of us. You’ll get yourself killed all on your own if you keep that up.”

With that, he shuts his eyes again and goes back to ignoring you. You raise your hand, feel blood at your neck, and barely hold back a glare.

Since it appears that you’ve been dismissed, you get up and leave, forcing yourself to ignore the way the bite wound throbs. It doesn’t hurt that bad. You can take it. You’re still not afraid, and now you know exactly what the monsters you’re stuck with will do to you when they feed.

With nothing else to do, you go back to your room. You find the way well enough, remembering what paths you took through the mansion.

The pink room is as unwelcoming as ever, and even as you flop down on the bed, you feel vaguely uncomfortable. There’s still annoyance running through you, and in a moment of frustration, you punch one of the pillows.

It doesn’t make you feel any better.

More than ever, you’re reminded that you’re stuck here with six monsters, left as little more than a blood bag and forced victim of their whims. A headache pounds at your temples, some combination of anger and exhaustion making every part of you ache. It’s disgusting.

Each one of them seems to be terrible in his own way, and if even the lazy one is willing to drag you down and bite, you can only imagine what the others are going to be like. The very thought is almost sickening.

Well, it’s not like there’s anything you can do about it. You’re not exactly unbothered, but it’s not like you can’t handle it.

You settle in underneath the heavy covers of the pink bed. You’re still feeling lightheaded, and at this point, you think a nap will do you good. Considering the blood loss, you’d be willing to bet that you need one. Who knows when you’ll be bitten again, when you’ll wind up even more drained.

When you fall asleep, it’s a little more like passing out than resting, a deep, unpleasant sleep taking you within minutes.

There’s someone standing over you when you wake up, and it take everything you have not to bolt upright and punch them.

Instead, you take a deep breath, open your eyes, and look up at Reiji standing there, a glare on his face. You almost feel yourself sigh. You do not want to deal with this again, not another one of them so soon.

You sit up and meet his eyes. “Can I help you?” you ask, still trying to be polite, even through the exhaustion weighing you down.

Reiji makes a disgusted face, one eyebrow crooking up in obvious contempt. “That is not the proper way to greet someone,” he says, looking at you like you’re stupid, and you bristle a bit. You’d sort of forgotten how annoying this one’s ego could be, and you still don’t like it.

You bite your lip to prevent yourself from saying anything rude and stay quiet. You don’t think you can open your mouth without snapping at him, and you’re well aware that that would just get you into trouble.

“On your feet, now,” Reiji orders with a condescending tone. “I expect you to be upright and paying attention when I speak to you.”

Reluctantly, you stand up, forcing your face into something that isn’t obviously annoyed. When you’d talked to Reiji before, he didn’t seem so bad, but you’re starting to realize that he’s as much of a pain as the rest.

Once you’re up, Reiji’s eyes immediately flicker to your neck.

“I see you’ve already allowed yourself to be bitten. How unseemly. It’s only been a day, and you’re throwing yourself at one of my brothers,” he says, and you feel your patience snap. He’s absolutely infuriating.

“I didn’t throw myself at anyone,” you say, meeting his gaze without a flinch. Reiji’s eyes narrow, and you feel like you may have made a mistake.

“How brave of you. I wouldn’t have expected you to be so foolish as to talk back to me, and yet, you have surpassed my expectations for human stupidity,” Reiji’s tone is dripping with disdain, and his words are the harshest you’ve heard from him yet. “That sort of behavior will have to be dealt with. I will not tolerate such rudeness from a mere human girl.”

He steps forward, and places one cool hand against your chin, tilting your head and taking in what he surely expects to be a terrified expression. You do your best not to glare, to not do anything that will anger him more.

Suddenly, Reiji’s expression changes.

“Ah, I see you’ve been associating with the good-for-nothing.” His voice is lower than before, something dangerous in his tone.

You can tell that if you press right now, you’ll get yourself into more trouble than you want. You’re very aware that you’re living with monsters, and one wrong move could cost you your life around them.

There’s something very wrong in this situation, in the way Reiji’s looking at you, and despite all better instincts, you make a split-second decision to stand up for yourself. You stay where you are, meet his gaze, and refuse to falter, keeping your posture as assertive as you can.

You don’t say anything, just wait for Reiji to make the next move. He seems to be analyzing your response. Perhaps waiting for you to act.

After a moment, Reiji turns away. The motion, on the surface, looks like some kind of surrender, but you know better. It’s calculated, trying to set you off your guard and make you think you’ve won.

“I see you are rather fearless,” he says, a note of irritation barely perceptible in his voice. “How impressive.” His voice is condescending, measured, and you tense. “This conversation will be continued at a later date. Come to the third floor study later tonight. You will be expected to be there, so I would not recommend trying to ignore me.”

It’s a trap. You can tell from the way Reiji is talking that he’s plotting something, and you don’t like it. Who knows what he’ll try.

Even so, you don’t really see how you can refuse. You don’t imagine that Reiji would take it well if you outright tell him know. You’re going to have to face whatever he comes up with. Once again, annoyance boils in your veins. He really does think he can do whatever he wants to you.

Reiji leaves, and you’re left alone in your room, wondering what he’s going to try to do to you. You’re vaguely disgusted, more annoyed than anything, and sort of wishing you could just have told him to fuck off.

Yeah, like you’d ever survive that one.

Even though you still feel tired, still feel the exhaustion of blood loss weighing you down, you decide to take another walk around the mansion.

You probably need to calm down before you have to deal with Reiji again, before you have to willingly walk into what you know is a trap. The more you think about it, the more angry you feel.

That walk had better do your temper some good.

The third floor study isn’t hard to find. You feel like you’ve been figuring out the layout of the mansion already, and it’s not a struggle to track down the room that Reiji ordered you to come to.

As you stand outside the door, knowing that Reiji can tell you’re there, you take a deep breath, praying that you won’t do anything stupid.

Forcing your expression into something neutral, something that doesn’t betray how badly you wish you could leave, you push open the door and step inside. You know this is going to be a mistake already.

Immediately, a chemical scent hits you. The room appears to be normal, as richly furnished as anywhere else in the house, mostly composed of a wall of bookshelves and a few soft-looking chairs. There’s something ominous in the air, though, and when you notice Reiji sitting stiffly in one of the chairs facing the door, that feeling of dread only increases.

There’s tea in front of him; two cups, steaming. You understand instantly what he’s going to try to do to you.

That tea is, without a doubt, laced with something.

Reiji orders you to have a seat, and you obey, sitting opposite him in a position that leaves you unable to see much of the room but him. You force yourself not to make a face that will give away how irritated you are.

“I see you’re relatively on time,” Reiji says, and there’s open disdain in his voice. “Your punctuality will have to be improved, understand? I have no tolerance for things that are not perfect.” It’s arrogant. He’s arrogant. You wish you could smack the smug look right off his impassive face.

“Mhmm,” you say instead, “I’ll try to do better next time.”

You’re faking, containing yourself through willpower alone, and when Reiji’s mouth crooks into a little smirk, you can feel your eye twitch.

“Good. Compliance is to your benefit, in this house. Now, please have some tea. I was kind enough to make you a portion as well, you understand.” Reiji picks up his own cup and has a sip, as if to show you that there’s nothing wrong with it. You’re well aware that it’s a ruse.

You decide then and there that you’re going to meet whatever he has planned for you head on. You lift your own cup to your lips with no fear.

The tea tastes exactly how you would have expected; chemical and harsh, even through the soft aroma it gives off. The taste slides down over your tongue, making your lips tingle, and you swallow it willingly.

It’s not like you can back out. He’ll hurt you regardless of what you do, and you’ll at least be able to live with yourself if you face it.

Reiji keeps talking, saying something more about your manners, or lack thereof, and you focus on the way your head starts to spin. It’s probably not poison in the tea. You don’t expect Reiji to kill you off so easily, but whatever it is is likely some kind of unpleasant drug to make you suffer.

There’s a numb feeling creeping over your limbs, through your head. It doesn’t hurt, which you take as a good sign, but it’s worrying nonetheless. Your best guess is that Reiji wants to see you squirm before something.

“Are you feeling alright?” Reiji asks, and you can hear the mockery in his tone. You wish you could shrug off the drug just to spite him.

“I know you drugged it,” you reply, but your tongue feels like lead in your mouth. A flash of something almost like surprise flashes through Reiji’s eyes. You imagine that not many people have figured him out so quickly.

“And yet you still drank it,” Reiji smirks, as if you had any kind of choice. “What a foolish girl you are. Did you expect I’d stop you? Save you? Of course not. You will serve as a fine test subject for what I’ve been working on. Let’s just hope it doesn’t kill you too quickly.”

He’s bluffing. You can tell already. Reiji’s words are cruel, but his voice lacks the venom that would be there if he really intended to end you.

Your mouth has gone completely numb, your body flopping against the chair like a rag doll. You want to reply to him, but you can’t make any part of you work, so instead, you take a breath and let yourself relax.

What’s going to happen next will hurt, but you can take it.

Reiji stands, crosses the couple steps to be beside you, and looks down at you with something almost predatory. He’s trying to be frightening. It isn’t working. All you feel is anger at his arrogance, fury that makes you wish you could stand up and slap the smirk off his face. He’s not going to scare you, no matter what kinds of tricks and torment he tries.

One cold hand closes around your wrist, dragging you out of the chair with surprising strength. Reiji hauls you to your feet like you weigh nothing. Your legs shake, unable to hold your weight, and you dangle from his grip.

“How pathetic. You can’t even stand. I suppose it’s not so easy to face me now, is it?” Gross. He really thinks he’s going to scare you like this? “I warned you that compliance will be vital in this household, and trying to assert yourself was a truly unwise decision on your part.”

He tugs you to his chest, moving your limp body with ease. You swallow fury and wish you could spit in his smug face.

Supporting you with ease, Reiji leans down. You know what’s coming long before fangs sink into the soft skin of your neck. The pain is familiar, no different than when Shuu bit you, and once again, it’s bearable.

Reiji seems to assume that you’re too drugged to respond. He laughs against your neck, muttering something about how pathetic you are when you’re helpless before him. He bites again, a bit further up, and again, finally settling on the third wound. You can feel yourself being drained.

There’s blood dripping down your neck, a cold tongue on your skin, and a numbness all through you that blocks out everything but the pain.

You’re getting dizzy, and not just from the drug.

“I expect you to never approach that good-for-nothing again,” Reiji finally says, voice against your skin. “He’s a poor influence, and I will not tolerate any association with him.” You notice something as he speaks.

There’s something off in Reiji’s voice, something almost unstable. Perhaps this is some kind of weak point for him, something raw?
It’s the first weakness you’ve seen from him yet.

Reiji feeds from you until your head is spinning. You imagine that he’s trying to make it hurt. His fangs are painful, but you can withstand it. He’s going to have to try harder than this if he wants you to break.

When he’s finally done, he drops you, abruptly allowing your body to crumple to the floor. Hard wood hits your knees, your stomach, your head, and you would wince if you could move. Reiji looks down at you with confidence, as if he’s certain he’s just shattered you. There’s blood around his mouth, ruining the composed image he’s surely trying for.

You’re starting to feel a little less numb, you realize. You did only have one swallow of the tea, and it’s possible that the drug is starting wear off already. Twitching your fingers, you realize that you can move again.

“How unseemly,” Reiji says, nudging you with one polished shoe. “You look quite pathetic like this, you know. This is why we’ll have to work on your manners some, so that things like this don’t have to happen again.” Disgusting. He really thinks that this is going to give him control.

You swallow, try to feel how much you can move. More and more control is returning to you with every passing moment.

You sit up, then stand, forcing yourself to feet with willpower alone. Reiji takes a step back, and you wonder if you’re actually surprising him. Once on your feet, you meet his eyes, muster all the resistance you have.

“Is this the worst you can do to me?”

For a fraction of a second, Reiji’s eyes widen. You stare him down, allowing anger to seep into your gaze.

It’s unlikely that he’s ever had prey that fought back as much as you. You would guess that he’s caught at least a little off guard. From his behavior alone, you can assume that he’s used to being in control. What a shame that his tactics aren’t going to make you cower.

Something in Reiji’s face twitches. He’s annoyed, you can tell. “Very well,” he says, biting out the words. “We’ll see if that attitude of yours lasts. You may return to your room. Hopefully, you’ve learned something today.”

Oh, you have. You’ve learned for a fact that these vampires can’t scare you. You’re starting to think that this has been a legitimate effort to do so.

When you leave the room, you force yourself not to shake. You’re not going to show any weakness in front of Reiji, not after what he tried. Blood is pooling at the wounds on your neck, hot and sticky on your skin.  

You walk back to your room fuming. The longer what Reiji did to you sinks in, the more infuriated you feel. When you think of how many people he must have tried this on, you wish you could have done something back to him. If you could have gotten away with it, you probably would have.

The door to your room shuts behind you, and you finally allow yourself to stumble. You feel drained, empty, and pain throbs through every wound.

You flop back onto your bed, curling up a bit and breathing deep.

You’re going to make it. You’re not going to break. Even if it kills you, you’re going to stand up to Reiji and the rest of them Even if it means you have to do it with your dying breath.

Thinking of the self-assured smirk on Reiji’s face, of the note in his voice when he spoke of Shuu, of drugged tea and cowardly, manipulative tactics meant to scare you into compliance, you fall asleep, more passing out than anything.

This isn’t going to be the end.

only you know the way that i break: second scene

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Fic below the cut!!!

The next night comes. You wake up to an uneasy feeling and a suspicious weight on your bed, somewhere around your knees.

You feel yourself sigh more than you hear it; you already have a feeling you know what’s there, and you don’t want to open your eyes and find out. Against your better judgement, you do so anyway.

It’s Laito, dressed in casual clothes and leering at you like you’re his personal plaything. You wonder if you could get away with hitting him.

Remembering that he liked it, you decide against it.

“Good evening, Bitch-chan~ Did you dream about me?” he asks, sounding disgustingly smug. Laito is lounging on your bed like he owns it, stretched out as comfortable as can be. If you weren’t pretty sure it’d end badly for you, you’d shove him off just to see his face when he fell.

“Why are you in my room?” you reply, resisting the urge to glare. You don’t want to give him the satisfaction of reacting to what he does.

Laito laughs. “You’re always so cold, Bitch-chan. Don’t you know that we’re already like lovers? You were so passionate yesterday, telling me how much you hated me… Ah, it’s your fault that I’m feeling like this~”

Nothing that comes out of this boy’s mouth is ever going to make sense, you realize. You want to snap at him, but you’re afraid it would just encourage the nightmare that is dealing with Laito. Instead, you level a blank look, staring at him like you think he’s crazy. You kind of do.

Cheeks flushed, Laito leans towards you, cornering you with his body. He’s thin, you note, slender figured and almost slight. It’s strange to think that someone as strong as him could be so small.

He takes your hand in his, and you don’t do anything to resist. When he tugs you to your feet, gracefully sliding off the bed, you follow.

You’ve figured out that he likes it too much when you fight back.

When you’re on your feet, Laito pulls you close to him, looping an arm around your shoulders and keeping you close to his chest. He’s cold like something dead, and smells of some strange, heavy perfume.

It’s disgusting, and you’re reminded all over again that what you’re dealing with is far from human.

You’re walked out of the room, Laito pulling you along by the arm over your shoulders. He’s smiling and chatting all the while, going on and on about how cute and pretty you are when you play nice, and you wish that you could just hit him, if only you thought it would shut him up.

The reason why you’re not fighting him is mostly because you don’t want to encourage him. He liked it far too much when you got violent, and the last thing you want is for him to think that he has any ground with you.

You don’t know where he’s taking you, but you have a feeling that it’ll end in being bitten again. He’s probably just trying to get control.

Why a vampire that could overpower you in a second feels the need to establish dominance is beyond you. You’re starting to think that they’re all more insecure than they let on, for all they try to act tough.

Laito leads you through the hallways of the mansion, down a path that you don’t recognize. You’ve explored a fair amount of the house by yourself, but wherever he’s taking you is somewhere new. You don’t like it. Laito is probably trying to get you somewhere where you feel off balance, and the idea of dealing with whatever he’s plotting makes your head hurt.

Contemplating if you could get away with kicking him and walking away, you hold back a shudder when Laito kisses your cheek.

And then something occurs to you.

For all of this morning, he’s been affectionate, weirdly so. You’ve already established that he’s the sort to act like you love him if you show him the slightest bit of attention, positive or negative, and the fact that he’s treating you like some kind of lover is suddenly deeply worrying.

You’re starting to realize that lashing out at him the other day might have been seen as some kind of invitation, some kind of admittance.

Or, you hope, it’s just a case of Laito being himself. It seems in character for him to try some weird “romantic” routine in order to catch you off guard. You’ve already established that he’s a manipulator.

Eventually, Laito drags you into a room. It’s an outdoor balcony on what appears to be the far end of the mansion, overlooking a garden. It’s on the upper floor of the mansion, you note, looking down on the grounds, and in all honesty, it’s a rather pretty place. You’re immediately suspicious.

Laito’s arm is still around you, heavy and cold, and you’re increasingly filled with the urge to remove it from your shoulders and take a step away.

Quiet, for once, he leads you to the edge of the balcony, closing his eyes for a moment. On the surface, it looks like he’s just enjoying the fresh air. You’re hit with the sudden feeling that it’s something much darker.

“Hey, Bitch-chan. I love places like this, did you know?” He’s smiling, but it somehow doesn’t reach his eyes. There’s a glassy look in them that makes you feel vaguely chilled, unsettled.  “I had a wonderful moment with a very special woman on a balcony, a long time ago~ Wouldn’t it be nice if we could love each other so much someday too?”

You don’t answer, and Laito tugs you closer, cold body pressing into your space. It’s uncomfortable, and you resist the urge to pull away.

He laughs again, and the sound has a hollow tone to it. You shiver. There’s something very wrong here, and you have the feeling you’re going to find out what it is. Laito’s hand strokes at your shoulder.

“Anyway, there’s a reason why I brought you here, Bitch-chan.” His voice is fake-serious, low and hushed. It’s beyond annoying.

“I had an idea, after our moment yesterday…” He sounds almost amused. “You’re a tough girl; even though your blood’s so sweet and nice, you want to fight back when I bite you. So~ I was thinking; I’ve never met a girl as brave as you, Bitch-chan, so how about I let you do things your way, hmm? I always want to make pretty girls happy, you know?”

“What do you mean by that?” you reply, suspicion heavy in your tone. For all you know, this is some kind of stupid trap. You don’t trust what Laito says for a second, especially not while he looks so happy about it.

Laito’s cheeks go redder, a slimy grin working its way across his face. He takes his arm away from you, grabs you by both shoulders instead, leaning in much too close and forcing you to look at him.

“I mean, Bitch-chan, that I want to let you fight back more. You hate me so much, don’t you? Why not show me? Why not let me know exactly how filthy you think I am? I promise I’ll love it. I’ll love you.” He’s looking at you with open arousal, open excitement at what he’s suggesting.

No. Ordering. You already know that he’s not leaving you a choice.

You think of blood dripping down his chin, the way he looked at you when you refused to back down. You think of how badly you want to knock the stupid grin off his face. You think of fangs in your stomach, forcing.

“What are you saying that I do? Hurt you? Are you really going to let me get away with that?” You tone is cold, unyielding.

The way Laito’s eyes light up makes you feel almost sick. He’s enjoying this already, you think, getting some sick enjoyment from thinking that he’s bending you to his will. You wonder what he’d do if you refuse.

“Whatever you want, Bitch-chan. I love cute girls like you, so strong and cold. You’ll like it better if you get your way. You’ll love me more when you’re making me bleed. I just want to see you fall down to pleasure with me, nfu~” There’s something arrogant in the way he speaks.

He’s expecting you to play his little game.

You don’t know what it is that makes you respond, what reason you possibly have to not just walk away and forget that this ever happened.

You want nothing to do with Laito’s idea of fun. You can tell already that he’s trying to manipulate you, get something out of you that you just don’t know yet. Maybe he’s just selfishly seeking his own pleasure.

Maybe that’s the same reason you choose to open your mouth.

“Alright. So I get to hurt you, huh? I wonder why you’d want to let me get away with something like that,” you say, words spilling out.  

Laito’s face lights up. “Exactly, Bitch-chan. You hate me. You hate me with everything you have, and I’ll love you in return~ Sounds fun, doesn’t it? I’ll make you feel so good,” he moans, and your hands clench.

You already want to knock that grin off his face.

Crooning that he’s so happy that you worked things out, that you’re going to hate him with so much passion, Laito ducks his head down to your neck, licking your skin with a cold tongue and inhaling deeply.

“Ah, you smell so sweet~ Let me have a little taste, okay?” he moans, and that’s all the warning you get before there are fangs in your skin.

The burn is starting to become familiar, and that thought isn’t a pleasant one. Laito bites roughly, shoving you back against the wall near the door. Your back hits the stone with a painful thud, and you wince.

So this is how he’s going to play.

Acting on anger, your hand goes to Laito’s hair, grabbing a handful and pulling hard, possibly rougher than the day before. Laito yelps against your skin, fangs tearing larger holes as he’s ripped away.

He asked you to do it. It’s probably not going to get you killed if you fight back. These thoughts rush through your head as you force him away.

“Get off of me,” you hiss. “If you’re going to put me in charge, we’re going to do things my way.” Shockingly, Laito obeys, licking the blood off his lips and smiling, amusement in his eyes. It’s sickening.

Without another word, you turn and leave, shoving the door open and walking away. The last thing you hear is Laito’s voice calling after you.

“We have a date tomorrow then, Bitch-chan~ I’ll come find you, and then you can show me just how passionate your feelings are.” There’s open arousal in his tone, mixed with something cheerful and delighted.

You know it’s just a game to him. He could end you anytime he feels like it, and most likely, the only thing keeping you alive at the moment is that you’re amusing to him. If he didn’t like what you were doing, if he didn’t think he was in control, you wouldn’t stand a chance. You’re well aware of what kind of disadvantage you’re at when compared to a monster

It’s disgusting that you’re being forced to play into his games. Whatever vulnerability you saw the day before is long gone, replaced with smug superiority and perverted desire.

Laito is getting his way, you know. You’re doing nothing but playing into it and giving him entertainment. He has nothing to risk with you.

You’re the one whose life is on the line.

Even so, you remember the look of shock in his eyes the first time you fought back. You caught him off guard, if only for a moment, and even if he’s managed to run with it now, he wasn’t always so at ease.

There’s a headache pounding at your temples. The heavy-perfume smell that hung over Laito has stuck to you, cloying and thick.

You fight to calm down. It won’t help you to lose your temper.

In your room, you feel slightly more at peace. The wound on your neck is dripping blood, torn open from when you yanked Laito away. The pain is somehow stabilizing, grounding, and you concentrate on the the steady pulses of pain that it gives off. You can do this. You’re not going to break.

You think of Laito’s smug grin, so self assured, and bring your hand up to press along the marks dotting your neck.

The next day comes. Despite the feeling of dread lodged low in your stomach, you carry on as normal, pointedly ignoring the unease.

Reiji harrasses you at breakfast, chiding you for not sitting up straight enough, for being a messy eater, and countless other little things that you never would have noticed on your own. You mostly wonder why he cares.

Through it all, you get the impression that what he’s attempting is some mix of controlling and self-elevating behavior. He’s trying to both put you down and make himself seem better, and you silently bristle a bit. Reiji isn’t one you could get away with fighting back with, but in the mood you’re in, he quickly gets lumped into the same pile of disgust as Laito.

You’re quickly deciding that you don’t like any of them very well.

Laito’s promise of a “date” today is turning your stomach. You don’t want to have to deal with him again, don’t want to have to look at his smug grin for any longer than you have to. You’re thoroughly sick of it all.

You’re sitting on your bed, flipping through more borrowed books from the library (this time on some sort of vampire history… you think) when something begins to tap at your window. A closer inspection proves it to be a small bat, holding a piece of paper in its tiny feet.

Against your better judgement, you get up to let the bat inside. It lands peacefully on your bed, releasing the paper with no fuss.

The paper itself is pale pink and floral scented. You immediately know where it’s from, and have to resist tearing the thing up then and there. Laito’s feminine, curly handwriting spells out a short message instructing you to follow the familiar– the bat, you assume– to where it takes you.

It takes legitimate effort not to toss the bat back out your window and go back to reading in peace. You have the feeling you’d be found if you tried.

Instead, you stand up with a sigh, setting your book down on the bed.

“Well? I’m supposed to be following you, you know,” you say to the bat. It chirps at you softly in response. Honestly, it’s almost cute… at least until you remember that this thing apparently belongs to Laito.

The familiar soons takes flight, and you follow it. It leads you to another part of the house that you haven’t been through yet; one of the lower floors on the side opposite you room. You notice that, while the furnishings here might actually be even more fine than in your room, there’s a significant amount of damage to things here and there.

You remember the couple of times you’ve met Subaru, and the damage suddenly makes a considerable amount of sense.

It eventually stops in front of a worryingly normal looking door. Despite the bad feeling weighing on your shoulders despite knowing that Laito is going to try something again, you knock, then slowly push it open.

Your guess turns about to be correct. The room appears to be a bedroom. The walls are dark, there’s a plush, green carpet beneath your feet, and a pair of windows let in a soft, nighttime breeze. A chair, small table, a massive, lavish bed with curtains draped behind it are the only notable furniture in the room, and you get the impression that it’s not particularly lived in. The smell of perfume is stronger here than ever.

Laito is perched on the bed, laying on his stomach, a little book open in front of him. As soon as he catches sight of you, he bursts into a sickly sweet smile, pushing the book aside and scooting over with surprising grace.

Next thing you know, he’s behind you, arms wrapped around your midsection, head leaning in much too close to yours.

“Ah, Bitch-chan, I missed you so much,” Laito croons, and you feel almost sick. “I’ve been waiting patiently to see how much my cute little Bitch-chan really hates me. Please show me your hot, passionate feelings for me today. I’ll love you every bit as much as you hate me…”

Laito’s hands are at your chest and waist, forcing contact on you that you’d never want. He ignores the way you stiffen up, and instead eases you back to the bed, pulling you down with him and leaning into a kiss.

Well, he did say that he wanted you to fight back.

It’s probably not the best thing to do, but you bite him. Hard. Your teeth sink into his lip, catching a little string of flesh, and Laito jerks back.

For a moment, you hope you may have actually hurt him.

Instead, he moans, face going red as he licks the blood off his lips. You find yourself frustrated that vampires heal so damn quickly.

He leans in again, going for another kiss, and something in you snaps. You’ve been trying to remain decently polite, trying to keep your cool, but when his hand goes straight for your chest again, barging into your space, you decide that you’ve had more than enough of pretending not to care.

You backhand Laito with as much force as you can manage, hard enough to knock his head to the side. It’s sure to bruise, if he doesn’t heal so fast it won’t have a chance too, but Laito’s face only goes more red.

While you’re highly tempted to snap at him for touching you like that, you have the feeling that it will only make him push your boundaries more.

“You hit hard, Bitch-chan~” Laito laughs, still smiling. “You’re a strong girl, huh? All that hatred, all that resistance, ah, it just makes me want to love you more and more. You’re so pretty when you’re angry, when you look at me like you want me dead, so hate me with all you’ve got, okay?”

He’s annoying. He’s infuriating. Your temper is almost at its limit, and when he leans over you again, caging you in with his body and trying to part your thighs with his leg, you absolutely can’t take any more.

“Shut up,” you hiss. “Can you be quiet for five seconds, or does that nasty mouth never quit?” The words are out of you before you can stop.

Laito moves with you when you shove him over, and that part makes you almost angrier. He’s humoring you like an adult would a small child.

On his back, he arches his hips, forcing more contact. He’s smiling like he’s enjoying himself, face red and eyes glassy with arousal. You imagine that, for a creature as strong as him, what you’ve done so far is just playing.

You wrap your hands around his throat and start to squeeze.

Laito lets you keep him pinned, moans his approval as you tighten your grip. The most he does to fight you is squirm, and you assume that’s just an attempt at making you uncomfortable. You lean your weight into your grip on his throat, half hoping he’ll shut up for good.

He asked for this, you remind yourself when the feeling of choking someone sinks in. He’s goaded you into it at every turn.

Pulse pounding in your head, the smell of perfume half choking you, you lose track of how much time you spend on top of Laito, squeezing his throat until his face starts to go a bit red.

You don’t think for second that you’re really hurting him. At best, you’re minorly annoying. Laito has already shown that he can handle whatever you dish out, and at this point, the violence is more blinding anger than any real attempt to hurt him. You just wish he didn’t like it.

Finally, Laito gets bored of playing along.

You see the change in his eyes first, the glazed look being instantly replaced with something sharp and alert. Your grip falters for just a second, but that’s enough. Laito shifts, and you can feel how much stronger he is.

Before you know what’s happening you’re on your back, hands closing on empty air. Laito flips you easily, forcing your arms above your head.

“Ah, Bitch-chan~” he croons, voice rough. “Look what you’ve done to me. I’m all excited now, and it’s all your fault. You’re going to have to make it up to me, you naughty girl. You’d like that, hmm? I can smell that you’re getting hot too, you know… Here, let me help.”

Your stomach twists, rage and disgust mingling as one. Laito sinks his fangs into the meat of your shoulder, but you barely feel it. You struggle and try to shove him off of you, better judgement replaced with sheer fury.

“Mmm, you taste so sweet. I can tell how much you like it, Bitch-chan. You hate me, but your body doesn’t lie. My fangs are arousing you, even while you want me dead~” He sounds disgustingly arrogant.

What happens next you lose track of.

Between your own anger and the blood loss, you don’t remember much more than fangs and pain, pulse thudding triple-time.

Laito leaves you in his room, half conscious on the bed. The last thing you remember of him is a laughing apology for being so rough, a promise that he truly did love every second of your passionate hatred.

The bed you’re on has the same smell as the rest of Laito, and your head throbs with every inhale. Underneath it, though, is the same dark, unpleasant note that the rest of the mansion has; the smell that you’re quickly learning to associate with the vampires themselves.

You’re bleeding, you realize. Sitting up, a rush of dizziness almost forces you back down. You look down with something like horror.

There are bite marks dotting your chest, stomach, and thighs. Your shirt is torn open, hanging off of one shoulder. Your skirt is ripped up one side and pulled up to your hips. There’s blood stains underneath you, and most of the little wounds are still weeping red.

Irritated and in pain, you steal some of Laito’s clothes for the trek back to your room. You can barely walk, blood loss making your whole body feel funny, and you wonder if Laito might have wanted to kill you that time.

Of course not. You know better. He’s having far too much fun for that.

Fortunately, you don’t run into any of the other boys on your way back. They’re probably avoiding you because you stink like their brother, you think, and you don’t know if that’ a good thing or a terrible one.

Your room is a welcome sight, but first of all, you head to the bathroom to clean up. The dried blood on your skin feels disgusting.

As you wash yourself off, you see Laito’s throat under your hands every time you close your eyes. For someone who told you that you could be in charge, he sure didn’t follow through properly, and you find yourself wondering if the boy even knows how to give up control. The whole time, he acted like he was just playing a game, always staying far enough on top that you couldn’t exert any real control. It’s arrogance, most likely.

Well aware that you lost your temper, you force yourself to think over the experience, trying to place what all went wrong. You know that losing yourself and resorting to plain violence didn’t help you any.

Laito is much too tough to hurt in the normal ways. You’re never going to overpower him, and you can’t think of what would actually do him harm.

It occurs to you that his pride is a weakness.

He thinks that he’s above you. He thinks that you’re some toy that he can play with as he sees fit, do with whatever he pleases.

The one moment when his composure broke was when, for an instant, he wasn’t entirely in charge of the situation.

It was easy for Laito to claim that he wanted you to be in charge. The whole time, though, you were doing what he wanted. It was his idea for you to react with violence, for you to grow angered and lash out. He’d been able to turn the situation around the whole time.

He played at your weaknesses and took control, even while claiming that he wanted you to do the same. You don’t know if was an open lie, or if he honestly just has no idea how to act in a situation where he wasn’t playing everything to his favor.

You imagine that a vampire would never have been in an experience where a human was a legitimate threat to him. He has no reason to fear a human, even one who equally has no fear for him.

Bravery may have made you special, but anger reduces you to the level of anyone else who bought into Laito’s tricks.

Deciding then that you won’t play his game again, that you won’t let yourself lose your temper and do what he expects you to, you take a deep breath and remind yourself that this isn’t a situation you’ll easily win. You’re in a house of monsters, and you have to be at your absolute best.

You hurt when you lay down, bite wounds dotting your body aching with every little move. Laito did a number on you, and you fell for it all.

But you’ve realized now what needs to change.

Laito still doesn’t scare you, and he probably never will. The worst he can do is hurt you, and he’s already done plenty of that. You’re still more angry than afraid, and you know that’s the problem.

As you fall asleep, the emptiness of Laito’s room is suddenly brought to the front of your mind. It was abnormal, almost like the person who lived there didn’t have quite enough personality to fill the room, and that stands out to you. There was something decidedly wrong about it all, something that, dare you think it, seemed almost telling.

Perhaps Laito isn’t quite as untouchable as he seems to be.

You’re determined not to make the same mistakes again. You’re not going to lose your temper anymore. You’re not going to let Laito win.

only you know the way that i break: second scene

Admin Mawile: (ノ*゜▽゜*) And the second chapter of Laito’s route is done!

I mentioned this in this post, but the chapters from now on will be decided by a Ko-Fi vote! Please vote if you’d like to, and help me write nice stuff about our favorite awful boys~

The warnings for this chapter include minor violence, minor blood, non-sexual choking, one scene that resembles sexual assault, and just a lot of Laito being Laito and making questionable decisions. Seriously, this boy needs to be stopped. If any of this bothers you, read carefully. 

Questions and comments will always be appreciated, and thank you so much for reading! ❤ (∩´∀`)∩

Fic below the cut!!!

The next night comes. You wake up to an uneasy feeling and a suspicious weight on your bed, somewhere around your knees.

You feel yourself sigh more than you hear it; you already have a feeling you know what’s there, and you don’t want to open your eyes and find out. Against your better judgement, you do so anyway.

It’s Laito, dressed in casual clothes and leering at you like you’re his personal plaything. You wonder if you could get away with hitting him.

Remembering that he liked it, you decide against it.

“Good evening, Bitch-chan~ Did you dream about me?” he asks, sounding disgustingly smug. Laito is lounging on your bed like he owns it, stretched out as comfortable as can be. If you weren’t pretty sure it’d end badly for you, you’d shove him off just to see his face when he fell.

“Why are you in my room?” you reply, resisting the urge to glare. You don’t want to give him the satisfaction of reacting to what he does.

Laito laughs. “You’re always so cold, Bitch-chan. Don’t you know that we’re already like lovers? You were so passionate yesterday, telling me how much you hated me… Ah, it’s your fault that I’m feeling like this~”

Nothing that comes out of this boy’s mouth is ever going to make sense, you realize. You want to snap at him, but you’re afraid it would just encourage the nightmare that is dealing with Laito. Instead, you level a blank look, staring at him like you think he’s crazy. You kind of do.

Cheeks flushed, Laito leans towards you, cornering you with his body. He’s thin, you note, slender figured and almost slight. It’s strange to think that someone as strong as him could be so small.

He takes your hand in his, and you don’t do anything to resist. When he tugs you to your feet, gracefully sliding off the bed, you follow.

You’ve figured out that he likes it too much when you fight back.

When you’re on your feet, Laito pulls you close to him, looping an arm around your shoulders and keeping you close to his chest. He’s cold like something dead, and smells of some strange, heavy perfume.

It’s disgusting, and you’re reminded all over again that what you’re dealing with is far from human.

You’re walked out of the room, Laito pulling you along by the arm over your shoulders. He’s smiling and chatting all the while, going on and on about how cute and pretty you are when you play nice, and you wish that you could just hit him, if only you thought it would shut him up.

The reason why you’re not fighting him is mostly because you don’t want to encourage him. He liked it far too much when you got violent, and the last thing you want is for him to think that he has any ground with you.

You don’t know where he’s taking you, but you have a feeling that it’ll end in being bitten again. He’s probably just trying to get control.

Why a vampire that could overpower you in a second feels the need to establish dominance is beyond you. You’re starting to think that they’re all more insecure than they let on, for all they try to act tough.

Laito leads you through the hallways of the mansion, down a path that you don’t recognize. You’ve explored a fair amount of the house by yourself, but wherever he’s taking you is somewhere new. You don’t like it. Laito is probably trying to get you somewhere where you feel off balance, and the idea of dealing with whatever he’s plotting makes your head hurt.

Contemplating if you could get away with kicking him and walking away, you hold back a shudder when Laito kisses your cheek.

And then something occurs to you.

For all of this morning, he’s been affectionate, weirdly so. You’ve already established that he’s the sort to act like you love him if you show him the slightest bit of attention, positive or negative, and the fact that he’s treating you like some kind of lover is suddenly deeply worrying.

You’re starting to realize that lashing out at him the other day might have been seen as some kind of invitation, some kind of admittance.

Or, you hope, it’s just a case of Laito being himself. It seems in character for him to try some weird “romantic” routine in order to catch you off guard. You’ve already established that he’s a manipulator.

Eventually, Laito drags you into a room. It’s an outdoor balcony on what appears to be the far end of the mansion, overlooking a garden. It’s on the upper floor of the mansion, you note, looking down on the grounds, and in all honesty, it’s a rather pretty place. You’re immediately suspicious.

Laito’s arm is still around you, heavy and cold, and you’re increasingly filled with the urge to remove it from your shoulders and take a step away.

Quiet, for once, he leads you to the edge of the balcony, closing his eyes for a moment. On the surface, it looks like he’s just enjoying the fresh air. You’re hit with the sudden feeling that it’s something much darker.

“Hey, Bitch-chan. I love places like this, did you know?” He’s smiling, but it somehow doesn’t reach his eyes. There’s a glassy look in them that makes you feel vaguely chilled, unsettled.  “I had a wonderful moment with a very special woman on a balcony, a long time ago~ Wouldn’t it be nice if we could love each other so much someday too?”

You don’t answer, and Laito tugs you closer, cold body pressing into your space. It’s uncomfortable, and you resist the urge to pull away.

He laughs again, and the sound has a hollow tone to it. You shiver. There’s something very wrong here, and you have the feeling you’re going to find out what it is. Laito’s hand strokes at your shoulder.

“Anyway, there’s a reason why I brought you here, Bitch-chan.” His voice is fake-serious, low and hushed. It’s beyond annoying.

“I had an idea, after our moment yesterday…” He sounds almost amused. “You’re a tough girl; even though your blood’s so sweet and nice, you want to fight back when I bite you. So~ I was thinking; I’ve never met a girl as brave as you, Bitch-chan, so how about I let you do things your way, hmm? I always want to make pretty girls happy, you know?”

“What do you mean by that?” you reply, suspicion heavy in your tone. For all you know, this is some kind of stupid trap. You don’t trust what Laito says for a second, especially not while he looks so happy about it.

Laito’s cheeks go redder, a slimy grin working its way across his face. He takes his arm away from you, grabs you by both shoulders instead, leaning in much too close and forcing you to look at him.

“I mean, Bitch-chan, that I want to let you fight back more. You hate me so much, don’t you? Why not show me? Why not let me know exactly how filthy you think I am? I promise I’ll love it. I’ll love you.” He’s looking at you with open arousal, open excitement at what he’s suggesting.

No. Ordering. You already know that he’s not leaving you a choice.

You think of blood dripping down his chin, the way he looked at you when you refused to back down. You think of how badly you want to knock the stupid grin off his face. You think of fangs in your stomach, forcing.

“What are you saying that I do? Hurt you? Are you really going to let me get away with that?” You tone is cold, unyielding.

The way Laito’s eyes light up makes you feel almost sick. He’s enjoying this already, you think, getting some sick enjoyment from thinking that he’s bending you to his will. You wonder what he’d do if you refuse.

“Whatever you want, Bitch-chan. I love cute girls like you, so strong and cold. You’ll like it better if you get your way. You’ll love me more when you’re making me bleed. I just want to see you fall down to pleasure with me, nfu~” There’s something arrogant in the way he speaks.

He’s expecting you to play his little game.

You don’t know what it is that makes you respond, what reason you possibly have to not just walk away and forget that this ever happened.

You want nothing to do with Laito’s idea of fun. You can tell already that he’s trying to manipulate you, get something out of you that you just don’t know yet. Maybe he’s just selfishly seeking his own pleasure.

Maybe that’s the same reason you choose to open your mouth.

“Alright. So I get to hurt you, huh? I wonder why you’d want to let me get away with something like that,” you say, words spilling out.  

Laito’s face lights up. “Exactly, Bitch-chan. You hate me. You hate me with everything you have, and I’ll love you in return~ Sounds fun, doesn’t it? I’ll make you feel so good,” he moans, and your hands clench.

You already want to knock that grin off his face.

Crooning that he’s so happy that you worked things out, that you’re going to hate him with so much passion, Laito ducks his head down to your neck, licking your skin with a cold tongue and inhaling deeply.

“Ah, you smell so sweet~ Let me have a little taste, okay?” he moans, and that’s all the warning you get before there are fangs in your skin.

The burn is starting to become familiar, and that thought isn’t a pleasant one. Laito bites roughly, shoving you back against the wall near the door. Your back hits the stone with a painful thud, and you wince.

So this is how he’s going to play.

Acting on anger, your hand goes to Laito’s hair, grabbing a handful and pulling hard, possibly rougher than the day before. Laito yelps against your skin, fangs tearing larger holes as he’s ripped away.

He asked you to do it. It’s probably not going to get you killed if you fight back. These thoughts rush through your head as you force him away.

“Get off of me,” you hiss. “If you’re going to put me in charge, we’re going to do things my way.” Shockingly, Laito obeys, licking the blood off his lips and smiling, amusement in his eyes. It’s sickening.

Without another word, you turn and leave, shoving the door open and walking away. The last thing you hear is Laito’s voice calling after you.

“We have a date tomorrow then, Bitch-chan~ I’ll come find you, and then you can show me just how passionate your feelings are.” There’s open arousal in his tone, mixed with something cheerful and delighted.

You know it’s just a game to him. He could end you anytime he feels like it, and most likely, the only thing keeping you alive at the moment is that you’re amusing to him. If he didn’t like what you were doing, if he didn’t think he was in control, you wouldn’t stand a chance. You’re well aware of what kind of disadvantage you’re at when compared to a monster

It’s disgusting that you’re being forced to play into his games. Whatever vulnerability you saw the day before is long gone, replaced with smug superiority and perverted desire.

Laito is getting his way, you know. You’re doing nothing but playing into it and giving him entertainment. He has nothing to risk with you.

You’re the one whose life is on the line.

Even so, you remember the look of shock in his eyes the first time you fought back. You caught him off guard, if only for a moment, and even if he’s managed to run with it now, he wasn’t always so at ease.

There’s a headache pounding at your temples. The heavy-perfume smell that hung over Laito has stuck to you, cloying and thick.

You fight to calm down. It won’t help you to lose your temper.

In your room, you feel slightly more at peace. The wound on your neck is dripping blood, torn open from when you yanked Laito away. The pain is somehow stabilizing, grounding, and you concentrate on the the steady pulses of pain that it gives off. You can do this. You’re not going to break.

You think of Laito’s smug grin, so self assured, and bring your hand up to press along the marks dotting your neck.

The next day comes. Despite the feeling of dread lodged low in your stomach, you carry on as normal, pointedly ignoring the unease.

Reiji harrasses you at breakfast, chiding you for not sitting up straight enough, for being a messy eater, and countless other little things that you never would have noticed on your own. You mostly wonder why he cares.

Through it all, you get the impression that what he’s attempting is some mix of controlling and self-elevating behavior. He’s trying to both put you down and make himself seem better, and you silently bristle a bit. Reiji isn’t one you could get away with fighting back with, but in the mood you’re in, he quickly gets lumped into the same pile of disgust as Laito.

You’re quickly deciding that you don’t like any of them very well.

Laito’s promise of a “date” today is turning your stomach. You don’t want to have to deal with him again, don’t want to have to look at his smug grin for any longer than you have to. You’re thoroughly sick of it all.

You’re sitting on your bed, flipping through more borrowed books from the library (this time on some sort of vampire history… you think) when something begins to tap at your window. A closer inspection proves it to be a small bat, holding a piece of paper in its tiny feet.

Against your better judgement, you get up to let the bat inside. It lands peacefully on your bed, releasing the paper with no fuss.

The paper itself is pale pink and floral scented. You immediately know where it’s from, and have to resist tearing the thing up then and there. Laito’s feminine, curly handwriting spells out a short message instructing you to follow the familiar– the bat, you assume– to where it takes you.

It takes legitimate effort not to toss the bat back out your window and go back to reading in peace. You have the feeling you’d be found if you tried.

Instead, you stand up with a sigh, setting your book down on the bed.

“Well? I’m supposed to be following you, you know,” you say to the bat. It chirps at you softly in response. Honestly, it’s almost cute… at least until you remember that this thing apparently belongs to Laito.

The familiar soons takes flight, and you follow it. It leads you to another part of the house that you haven’t been through yet; one of the lower floors on the side opposite you room. You notice that, while the furnishings here might actually be even more fine than in your room, there’s a significant amount of damage to things here and there.

You remember the couple of times you’ve met Subaru, and the damage suddenly makes a considerable amount of sense.

It eventually stops in front of a worryingly normal looking door. Despite the bad feeling weighing on your shoulders despite knowing that Laito is going to try something again, you knock, then slowly push it open.

Your guess turns about to be correct. The room appears to be a bedroom. The walls are dark, there’s a plush, green carpet beneath your feet, and a pair of windows let in a soft, nighttime breeze. A chair, small table, a massive, lavish bed with curtains draped behind it are the only notable furniture in the room, and you get the impression that it’s not particularly lived in. The smell of perfume is stronger here than ever.

Laito is perched on the bed, laying on his stomach, a little book open in front of him. As soon as he catches sight of you, he bursts into a sickly sweet smile, pushing the book aside and scooting over with surprising grace.

Next thing you know, he’s behind you, arms wrapped around your midsection, head leaning in much too close to yours.

“Ah, Bitch-chan, I missed you so much,” Laito croons, and you feel almost sick. “I’ve been waiting patiently to see how much my cute little Bitch-chan really hates me. Please show me your hot, passionate feelings for me today. I’ll love you every bit as much as you hate me…”

Laito’s hands are at your chest and waist, forcing contact on you that you’d never want. He ignores the way you stiffen up, and instead eases you back to the bed, pulling you down with him and leaning into a kiss.

Well, he did say that he wanted you to fight back.

It’s probably not the best thing to do, but you bite him. Hard. Your teeth sink into his lip, catching a little string of flesh, and Laito jerks back.

For a moment, you hope you may have actually hurt him.

Instead, he moans, face going red as he licks the blood off his lips. You find yourself frustrated that vampires heal so damn quickly.

He leans in again, going for another kiss, and something in you snaps. You’ve been trying to remain decently polite, trying to keep your cool, but when his hand goes straight for your chest again, barging into your space, you decide that you’ve had more than enough of pretending not to care.

You backhand Laito with as much force as you can manage, hard enough to knock his head to the side. It’s sure to bruise, if he doesn’t heal so fast it won’t have a chance too, but Laito’s face only goes more red.

While you’re highly tempted to snap at him for touching you like that, you have the feeling that it will only make him push your boundaries more.

“You hit hard, Bitch-chan~” Laito laughs, still smiling. “You’re a strong girl, huh? All that hatred, all that resistance, ah, it just makes me want to love you more and more. You’re so pretty when you’re angry, when you look at me like you want me dead, so hate me with all you’ve got, okay?”

He’s annoying. He’s infuriating. Your temper is almost at its limit, and when he leans over you again, caging you in with his body and trying to part your thighs with his leg, you absolutely can’t take any more.

“Shut up,” you hiss. “Can you be quiet for five seconds, or does that nasty mouth never quit?” The words are out of you before you can stop.

Laito moves with you when you shove him over, and that part makes you almost angrier. He’s humoring you like an adult would a small child.

On his back, he arches his hips, forcing more contact. He’s smiling like he’s enjoying himself, face red and eyes glassy with arousal. You imagine that, for a creature as strong as him, what you’ve done so far is just playing.

You wrap your hands around his throat and start to squeeze.

Laito lets you keep him pinned, moans his approval as you tighten your grip. The most he does to fight you is squirm, and you assume that’s just an attempt at making you uncomfortable. You lean your weight into your grip on his throat, half hoping he’ll shut up for good.

He asked for this, you remind yourself when the feeling of choking someone sinks in. He’s goaded you into it at every turn.

Pulse pounding in your head, the smell of perfume half choking you, you lose track of how much time you spend on top of Laito, squeezing his throat until his face starts to go a bit red.

You don’t think for second that you’re really hurting him. At best, you’re minorly annoying. Laito has already shown that he can handle whatever you dish out, and at this point, the violence is more blinding anger than any real attempt to hurt him. You just wish he didn’t like it.

Finally, Laito gets bored of playing along.

You see the change in his eyes first, the glazed look being instantly replaced with something sharp and alert. Your grip falters for just a second, but that’s enough. Laito shifts, and you can feel how much stronger he is.

Before you know what’s happening you’re on your back, hands closing on empty air. Laito flips you easily, forcing your arms above your head.

“Ah, Bitch-chan~” he croons, voice rough. “Look what you’ve done to me. I’m all excited now, and it’s all your fault. You’re going to have to make it up to me, you naughty girl. You’d like that, hmm? I can smell that you’re getting hot too, you know… Here, let me help.”

Your stomach twists, rage and disgust mingling as one. Laito sinks his fangs into the meat of your shoulder, but you barely feel it. You struggle and try to shove him off of you, better judgement replaced with sheer fury.

“Mmm, you taste so sweet. I can tell how much you like it, Bitch-chan. You hate me, but your body doesn’t lie. My fangs are arousing you, even while you want me dead~” He sounds disgustingly arrogant.

What happens next you lose track of.

Between your own anger and the blood loss, you don’t remember much more than fangs and pain, pulse thudding triple-time.

Laito leaves you in his room, half conscious on the bed. The last thing you remember of him is a laughing apology for being so rough, a promise that he truly did love every second of your passionate hatred.

The bed you’re on has the same smell as the rest of Laito, and your head throbs with every inhale. Underneath it, though, is the same dark, unpleasant note that the rest of the mansion has; the smell that you’re quickly learning to associate with the vampires themselves.

You’re bleeding, you realize. Sitting up, a rush of dizziness almost forces you back down. You look down with something like horror.

There are bite marks dotting your chest, stomach, and thighs. Your shirt is torn open, hanging off of one shoulder. Your skirt is ripped up one side and pulled up to your hips. There’s blood stains underneath you, and most of the little wounds are still weeping red.

Irritated and in pain, you steal some of Laito’s clothes for the trek back to your room. You can barely walk, blood loss making your whole body feel funny, and you wonder if Laito might have wanted to kill you that time.

Of course not. You know better. He’s having far too much fun for that.

Fortunately, you don’t run into any of the other boys on your way back. They’re probably avoiding you because you stink like their brother, you think, and you don’t know if that’ a good thing or a terrible one.

Your room is a welcome sight, but first of all, you head to the bathroom to clean up. The dried blood on your skin feels disgusting.

As you wash yourself off, you see Laito’s throat under your hands every time you close your eyes. For someone who told you that you could be in charge, he sure didn’t follow through properly, and you find yourself wondering if the boy even knows how to give up control. The whole time, he acted like he was just playing a game, always staying far enough on top that you couldn’t exert any real control. It’s arrogance, most likely.

Well aware that you lost your temper, you force yourself to think over the experience, trying to place what all went wrong. You know that losing yourself and resorting to plain violence didn’t help you any.

Laito is much too tough to hurt in the normal ways. You’re never going to overpower him, and you can’t think of what would actually do him harm.

It occurs to you that his pride is a weakness.

He thinks that he’s above you. He thinks that you’re some toy that he can play with as he sees fit, do with whatever he pleases.

The one moment when his composure broke was when, for an instant, he wasn’t entirely in charge of the situation.

It was easy for Laito to claim that he wanted you to be in charge. The whole time, though, you were doing what he wanted. It was his idea for you to react with violence, for you to grow angered and lash out. He’d been able to turn the situation around the whole time.

He played at your weaknesses and took control, even while claiming that he wanted you to do the same. You don’t know if was an open lie, or if he honestly just has no idea how to act in a situation where he wasn’t playing everything to his favor.

You imagine that a vampire would never have been in an experience where a human was a legitimate threat to him. He has no reason to fear a human, even one who equally has no fear for him.

Bravery may have made you special, but anger reduces you to the level of anyone else who bought into Laito’s tricks.

Deciding then that you won’t play his game again, that you won’t let yourself lose your temper and do what he expects you to, you take a deep breath and remind yourself that this isn’t a situation you’ll easily win. You’re in a house of monsters, and you have to be at your absolute best.

You hurt when you lay down, bite wounds dotting your body aching with every little move. Laito did a number on you, and you fell for it all.

But you’ve realized now what needs to change.

Laito still doesn’t scare you, and he probably never will. The worst he can do is hurt you, and he’s already done plenty of that. You’re still more angry than afraid, and you know that’s the problem.

As you fall asleep, the emptiness of Laito’s room is suddenly brought to the front of your mind. It was abnormal, almost like the person who lived there didn’t have quite enough personality to fill the room, and that stands out to you. There was something decidedly wrong about it all, something that, dare you think it, seemed almost telling.

Perhaps Laito isn’t quite as untouchable as he seems to be.

You’re determined not to make the same mistakes again. You’re not going to lose your temper anymore. You’re not going to let Laito win.

only you know the way that i break: first scene

Admin Mawile: Well, here’s the first chapter of Laito’s route! I wrote it faster than expected, so I hope everything turned out alright… 

To anyone who doesn’t already know, this fic takes place in my Sub Au, more information for which can be found on this blog. There’s going to be a route for each boy, and each route will be divided up into an estimated ten chapters. I’m probably taking on too much, honestly (*~▽~)

The warnings for this chapter include one scene that implies sexual assault, some minor blood and violence, and Laito being himself. If any of this bothers you, read carefully.

Questions and comments will always be appreciated, and thank you so much for reading! ❤ (∩´∀`)∩

Fic below the cut!!!

Time passes. You sleep for a bit, half expecting that you’ll wake up to one of the boys in your room. You remain undisturbed, though, all by yourself in a room so overly feminine it’s almost unpleasant.

The sky outside lightens and darkens. You’ve slept through most of a day already. There’s not much of a reason why you shouldn’t.

Instead of fussing over why no one has come for you yet, you go through your things, calmly unpacking and making the absurdly pink room your own. Everything in it is nice, all high quality materials, and you find it harder and harder to complain about the decor alone.

The room itself smells like flowers and something dark and unpleasant. There are few sounds in the house, not even the settling you’d expect.

It’s unnatural. It’s what you’d expect from a home full of vampires.

Despite the horror of the situation, you don’t feel anything but calm resignation. You’re here for good, you have a feeling, and it doesn’t seem to make sense to be afraid after everything that’s happened.

You know they might kill you. You know they’re going to hurt you.

Thinking of who could be in your place, you find you don’t really care.

The idea of being the vampire’s prey doesn’t scare you anymore. Your first meeting was far from intimidating. If anything, you feel like you won something by standing your ground when they tried to be intimidating.

You’re kneeling by the bed, sliding your suitcase underneath it for storage when one of the boys from before appears behind you.

You feel him before you turn around and see him, the distinct feeling of being watched. By choice, you stay exactly where you are, carefully pushing your suitcase the rest of the way under the bed.

“Ah, she’s ignoring me~” Laito says, humor in his tone. “Bitch-chan is so cruel. And here I just wanted to talk.”

When you do turn around, it’s slowly, as if you couldn’t care less that a vampire is looming mere inches behind you. Laito is much too close, practically invading your space with his body where he stands.

It’s a gesture of dominance, you can tell, and when you stand up, you make sure not to back down for a second. You stand up, staying just as close as he put himself to you, and look him dead in the eye. Laito isn’t particularly tall, and his intimidation is purely in the way he carries himself.

Laito’s pretty green eyes sparkle with something cunning and cold. You have the feeling he’s going to try something to make you afraid.

“So, what are you here for?” you ask.

“I wanted to talk to our pretty guest~” he sing-songs, sounding delighted. “You were such a brave little Bitch-chan earlier…”

He’s patronizing you with every word, treating you like a silly little girl. You can imagine that he’s used to girls much younger and softer than yourself. The thought of that makes you feel almost sick.

“Alright. What did you want to talk about?” you reply, sitting down on the bed in a casual gesture that should show him you’re not afraid.

There’s no sense in being rude to the vampires, but you’re also not going to cower from them for a second. You’ll be polite, yes, but you won’t leave room for them to walk all over you or see a second of your fear.

Well, not that you have much of that in the first place.

Laito sits down next to you, smiling fake-friendly. His posture is schooled, open, arms back and head tilted slightly back. He’s trying to look harmless, you can tell, and if anything, that puts you more on edge. You have a feeling that this one is a manipulator, and the last thing you want is to get wrapped up in the lies of a monster like him.

“So, why’s Bitch-chan so fearless, hmm~?” he asks with a little laugh at the end. “Don’t you realize that you’re in a bad place?”

You take a moment to consider how honest you should be. You run the risk of making him angry if you’re too blunt, but hiding things could very well get you in more trouble. This one could probably tell.

“I’m not afraid of you,” you say in the end. “I don’t know why, but I’m not. As soon as I figured out what you are, I quit being scared.” There’s a flash of something like surprise in Laito’s eyes, for just an instant.

You can’t help but feel like he’s faking.

Laito replies with cheery words, and you imagine that he’s trying to be comforting. He’s looking at you with something like predatory intent, though, and the sharpness in his eyes defeats the soft words.

Instead of pointing this out, you play along.

The conversation goes back and forth a couple more times, Laito seemingly playing the part of the concerned bystander. You don’t like how good an actor he is, cheerful voice slipping over the pretty words with ease. He doesn’t slip up for a second, even though you can tell that he’s messing with you. He must be well used to tricking people, you think.

The longer you talk to Laito, the more uncomfortable you feel. He’s downright slimy in a way that creepy men always seem to be, pretty face and relaxed demeanor only making it all worse.

You have a bad feeling about this one, somehow, and when he starts needling you about why you’re here in the first place you’ve had enough.

“Excuse me, but why are you asking me all this?” you ask. “Is there some point in knowing every detail of my personal life?”

Abruptly, something changes in Laito’s bearing. You freeze.

“Ah, Bitch-chan’s catching on,” he croons, and you resist the urge to back up a bit. He’s been using that demeaning nickname the whole time you’ve been talking, and you’ve only barely resisted telling him off for it.

All of the sudden, Laito is much too close. He moves faster than any human should be able to, and is mere inches away from your face before you can jerk away, smiling like he knows some exciting little secret about you. You’re about to shove him off of you, or least try to–

And then he kisses you.

Cold lips are pressed to yours, and Laito presses even closer, deepening the kiss so quickly and forcefully that you don’t have a second to pull away. His hand goes to your waist, tugging you close.

Beyond annoyed, you wedge your hands in between the two of you and shove, hard. Laito moves with you, but you can tell it’s willing.

“Feisty, hmm~?” Laito laughs, licking his lips. “I know that older women have more fight in them, but you look like you want to choke me~ Were you going to bite me next, Bitch-chan? Make me bleed?”

You feel downright nauseated. Before you can say anything, Laito scoots forward, pinning you with surprising strength. He forces you down and back onto the bed, kissing you again, and this time when you try to shove him off of you, he doesn’t budge.

Honestly, you want to bite him. If you thought it would get him to move, you would. He seemed far too excited by the prospect, though.

When he moves a hand to your breast, you consider it all over again.

Instead, you go limp, not fighting back. You’re not kissing back, either, and you imagine that he’ll get bored when his victim doesn’t react. His hands are all over you, forcing, and you can feel your eye twitching. It’s more infuriating than anything. You wish you could just shove him away.

Laito finally pulls back from the kiss. You don’t have much time for relief, though, because there’s a pain at your neck a second later, liquid agony flowing through you as what feels like fangs sink into your skin.

He moans against your neck, lapping at the skin, and you clench your fists and bite your lip. It hurts, of course it does, but you still just want to hit him. If this is all the worse being bitten by one of the monsters is, you can take it. You can definitely take it. Laito’s open invasion of anything resembling personal space bothers you more.

“You taste so sweet… Even though you try to be tough, your blood is telling me how much you enjoy this,” Laito mumbles against your skin.

It takes genuine effort not to try to strangle him.  

His hands are cold against you, and his mouth is cooler, even the soft puffs of breath as empty as if he was dead. You can’t feel any sort of pulse from him, and you’re increasingly aware of how inhuman he really is.

“You can fight back if you want, Bitch-chan,” he moans, sounding pleased. “Girls who hate me are just as delicious as the ones that love it.”

There’s blood dripping down your neck, sticky and hot.

You’re starting to feel light-headed.

If he thinks you’re going to encourage him, he’s dead wrong. Instead, you lay there and let him do what he wants, acting like you couldn’t care less that some pretty boy vampire is drooling over you.

That goes on for a good few minutes, Laito biting and licking and running his hands all over you. He doesn’t seem to get bored, and your irritation climbs. Just when you’re starting to wonder if it would be worth it to hit him, he tears your shirt open with inhuman strength.

This is the second time you’ve met the boy, you think bitterly. You’re starting to feel sick, wondering exactly how far he’s going to go while you lay there and pretend like it doesn’t matter that you’re being assaulted.

If you thought there was anything you could do to get him off of you, you’d do it. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem like there’s any way out.

Laito has moved on to biting at your chest, fangs prickling instead of piercing. You’re starting to get the impression that this is some kind of twisted show of dominance, and the only reason he’s bothering to torment you to such a degree is because you didn’t show fear earlier.

You’re definitely getting dizzy from blood loss, you think, and wonder if he really intends to kill you so soon in the game.

He sinks his fangs into your stomach and you grit your teeth. It hurts, horribly so. Even so, the pain is bearable. What’s really getting under your skin is the way he treats you like he has some right to your body. Maybe it’s a vampire thing, thinking that they’re so above humans that they can do things like this. You doubt that you’re special in any way.

That thought makes you picture something even worse.

A girl, younger and smaller and more fragile than you, holding back sobs as this monster drains her try. Fear in her eyes as he tears at her clothes. You have the sickening feeling that it’s happened already.

Something inside you snaps, shattering like glass.

Laito has tugged up your skirt, is inches away from sinking his fangs into the meat of your thigh. He looks downright smug.

You knee him in the head with as much force as you can muster.

You can feel Laito’s jaw snap together with a harsh click, and when he looks up at you, his fangs have gone through his own lip a bit, blood dripping down his chin. The wound already appears to be healing.

Disgustingly, he doesn’t look like it hurt him very much. Instead, he’s smiling, eyes sparkling with something close to satisfaction.

And then he moans.

“Ah, Bitch-chan, you really hate me, huh?” He’s nuzzling against your thigh, smirking like the cat that caught the canary. “You’re the first girl to fight back so viciously, you know? It’s so charming, that hatred in your eyes~” His gaze is fixed on you, glittering brilliant green.

Instead of showing how sickened you feel, you sit up, wipe your mouth, scrubbing the taste of him off of you, and bring a hand to a wound.

“Were you going to kill me?” you ask, feeling wetness on your skin.

“Of course not!” Laito laughs. “You’re so pretty and sweet, I just wanted to show you how nice it would be if you loved me. Your blood tastes so good, I can tell how much you liked being at my mercy, nfu~”

You give him a look that could freeze an open flame.

“Lovely. Are you done now?” you say, looking him in the eye like you don’t care that he was probably minutes away from raping you or worse.

Instead of replying, Laitio laughs again. “Don’t worry your silly little head about that, Bitch-chan. You’ll find out just what kind of pleasures I can bring you. You’ll come around sooner or later.” As soon as the line is done, he vanishes, gone every bit as suddenly as he’d appeared.

As soon as you’re sure he’s gone, you flop back onto the bed, exhausted. He took a lot of blood, you can feel it, and the wounds are only just starting to close over. Vampire saliva, perhaps.

Your skin still feels chilled where he touched you.

A couple deep breaths later, and the furious, scrambled feeling is gone. You’re still angry with him, but it’s down to something simmering and molten, instead of the kind of anger that made you knee him in the head.

That may not have been your wisest choice. Ah well, it got Laito off of you and didn’t end in your death. You can live with one bad choice.

There’s not a dash of fear in you. You’re angry. You’re disgusted. You’re honestly wondering if you could get away with strangling him, but you’re not afraid. You’ve seen what the monster can do, and all it did was piss you off. The thought of Laito’s smug grin makes your blood boil.

Rationally, you decided that another bit of sleep will do you good.

You wake up again, feeling just as tired as before you slept. The wounds on your neck, chest, and stomach are throbbing, and you inspect the punctures with annoyance. The marks are neat and small barely even noticeable, but hurt more than you’d expect from such tiny wounds.

Legs shaking when you stand, you force down how weak you feel. Blood loss is going to be beyond unpleasant to deal with.

After just a few minutes of sitting unsteadily on the edge of your bed, there’s a knock at your door. You tense for a second, then remember that Laito has already established that he doesn’t like to knock.

The person at the door is one of the servants, a tall, older man who tells you in low tones that a meal has been prepared for you downstairs.

A few minutes later finds you sitting at an absolutely massive table in what appears to be the dining room, all alone. The room is dark and vaguely unpleasant, smelling of the same odd scent as the rest of the mansion.

You aren’t exactly surprised when someone appears behind you.

This time, it’s Reiji, making a face like he’s mildly disgusted with you. You don’t comment. You know mind games when you see them.

Reiji informs you that he and his siblings attend school at night. “But, considering your age, you will be remaining in the mansion,” he says, sounding as if he dislikes the idea. He spends a few minutes lecturing you on what constitutes appropriate behavior while they’re gone, and, with one last parting comment about you using the wrong fork for your meal, is gone.

You very nearly collapse into a fit of giggles as soon as he’s vanished. The very idea of a vampire scolding you for using a salad fork improperly is ridiculous, and you can’t help but snicker at how serious he seemed.

After finishing your surprisingly palatable meal in peace, you leave the dining room behind, glad to be away from the monstrosity of a table.

The thing looked fit for something close to ten, not one lonely person, and can’t help but wonder if the boys ever eat there as a group. You can already picture them bickering like children over something stupid.

From what you know of them, you think it could actually happen.

You spend the next while wandering around the mansion, attempting to learn some of the twists and turns of the place. The house is absolutely huge, all winding hallways, and it takes some careful plotting to make sure that you don’t get hopelessly lost from your room.

(The thought of the boys at high school is still making you snicker. You wonder if it’s a school special for vampires, or if they have to play human.)

Something changes in the air after a while. There’s a sudden sense of foreboding, some energy crackling in the empty space, and you recognize it as a similar feeling from when you first entered the mansion.

Taking it to mean that at least some of the vampires have returned, you decide to stick a bit closer to your room.

You can just picture one of them trying to harass you for wandering around. With the infuriating memories of the incident with Laito fresh in your mind, you’re not sure you wouldn’t do something that you’d regret.

The feeling only intensifies when you see one of them waiting for you.

It’s Ayato, messy haired and looking like he thinks he’s on top of the world. There’s something childish in his expression, you note, some look in his eye that makes him seem younger than he already looks.

“Hey, old lady!” he crows when you get close enough, eyes fixing on you in an instant. “Where have you been? Out getting lost?” He laughs obnoxiously, grinning ear to ear, and you now have a very good idea of what this one is like. Even his tone of voice is arrogant and self-sure.

“Just exploring,” you reply, smiling politely. Ayato’s grin drops.

“Damn, you’re boring,” he says, making a face, “and yuck, I can smell Laito on you. Are you such a slut that you’ve been letting that nasty pervert at you already?” His eyes fall to the bite wound on your neck.

“You’re vampires. I would have imagined that this is normal for you,” you say, not falling for his taunt for a second.

A moment passes, you and Ayato looking at each other eye to eye. He’s challenging you, you can tell, trying to make you cower or feel ashamed. You hold his gaze and refuse to so much as flinch.

“Tch, boring,” he says eventually, looking away and taking a step back. “I’m not gonna bother with you while you stink like that pervert,”

It’s a childish admission. It’s a win nonetheless.

Ayato leaves, vanishing in the same way they all do, and you go back into your room, feeling almost proud. You stared down the monster and won, and that alone almost makes up for what happened earlier. Well, sort of. You still wish that you could have done more to Laito than kick him.

The impression you’re getting so far is that all of these boys need a serious attitude adjustment. Almost all of them have come off as childish and immature, and, for as young as they look, you can’t help but wonder where their parents are, why they’re left to raise themselves. Reiji has been the only recently responsible-seeming one you’ve met yet.

There’s no point in fussing over these awful creature, you remind yourself, laying back on your bed. None of them are of your concern.

A couple days go by, crawling slowly. You have little to do in the mansion but wander around, and you’re becoming horribly bored.

You find a library on day two, but most of the books are in languages that you don’t understand. Reading only gets you so far, anyway, not when you have absolutely nothing else to do in the huge house.

The brothers spend all night at school. You’re told early on that you’re expected to keep a nocturnal schedule too, and you don’t complain. Worse things could happen. You don’t mind being up at night too terribly, anyway. It doesn’t bother you too much that they’re imposing this too.

The mansion itself gets creepier the longer you’re in it. That dark, unpleasant smell never goes away, and every room you find has the same awful aura. Even the rose gardens out back seem half dead, refusing to thrive in such an unhappy place. No matter how pretty and fine everything is, you get the impression that the unhappiness is permeating it all.

You eat your meals alone in the dining room. You spend your days wandering a nightmare of a mansion. You sleep always half expecting to wake up to a real life monster hovering in your room.

It’s not hard to imagine how their previous prey would be terrified.

Instead, though, all you feel is resignation. There are some positives to all of it (the fanciest place you’ve ever been in, time to yourself to think, and so on), and you refuse to play the vampires’ game and start to break.

There’s no reason for you to be afraid. You’ve already experienced what they can do to you, and it doesn’t frighten you to be hurt.

Even better are the moments you actually face them. Even though you’ve been bitten a few times, the looks in their eyes when you remain cooly impassive through all of it are almost funny.

A couple of them, like the small one, get angry when you don’t play along. You’ve already had a fork embedded in your leg by him.

Most of them ignore what they see as unpleasant prey.

Laito seeks you out again on day four.

This time, you’re sitting in a chair in one of the many sitting rooms you’ve found, flipping through a book filled with fairy tales that you’ve never heard before. All of them are exceptionally violent and end horribly.

You’re just starting to wonder if this kind of thing is normal for vampires, when “Bi-tch-chan~” is whispered in your ear.

Knowing that he’s probably expecting you to startle, you close your book calmly and turn around. “Can I help you?” you ask, already feeling mildly annoyed by the same smug look on Laito’s pretty face.

“Aw, how cold,” he smiles, looking at you like a cornered mouse, “I’ve been so busy with school lately, and this is how my cute Bitch-chan talks to me? I’m hurt.” He makes a fake-upset face, pouting. You note that he’s wearing what looks like a uniform, probably from his school.

“Mhmm, I’m sure you are,” you say, voice even and unamused.

Laito does something too quickly for you to see, and next thing you know, you’re on your feet, pinned against a wall.

“Is Bitch-chan going to play nice,” Laito croons, “or am I going to have to be rough with her again?” He looks like the very idea pleases him.

Instead of responding, you sigh, not fighting his grip. You can already tell that you’re going to get bitten again. The idea doesn’t particularly bother you, aside from the fact that it’s the annoying one doing it.

Laito laughs again, and tears at your shirt, getting it off your shoulders roughly enough to pop a couple seams. You know already that your neck is dotted with a couple fang marks from his brothers, from the few times that they’ve gotten pushy enough with you to try to feed.

“Oh? You’ve been being passed around a lot while I was gone, huh, Bitch-chan? Did you like it? Did their fangs feel as good as mine?” Laito’s face is flushed, and he’s getting in close to your skin, inspecting.

He runs a couple fingers over one wound, pressing down with enough force to send a rush of pain through every part of you.

You grit your teeth and resist the urge to punch him. Hard.

Seconds later, there are fangs in your neck, biting painfully close to one of the existing wounds. Laito has your arms twisted up above your head at an odd angle, putting too much strain on them, and it’s starting to hurt.

He bites you a couple times, not lingering for long at each spot. You have the feeling he’s trying to mark you instead of feed.

“What do my brothers think of my scent all over you?” he asks, voice sounding thick and half-moaning. “I bet they all know what a little slut my Bitch-chan is, begging for my fangs like this~” He bites you again, deeper than before, and you try not to roll your eyes at his words.

All of them have assumed that you’re going to whimper and struggle, afraid, and their actions show that they don’t quite know what to do when you don’t. Laito especially seems to be stuck in the same role.

He mumbles something derogatory against your skin, infantilizing words, as if you’re some child who will fall before him.

He release your hands, moving to grope you instead.

You’re well aware that this a monster at your neck.

You don’t care.

One of your hands goes to Laito’s hair, embedding itself in the soft, auburn locks. Laito moans like he thinks you’re playing along. With as much force as you can muster, you yank his head away from you.

Hair rips under the strength of your grip, tearing away from his scalp. Laito yelps, moving with you, and you drag him off of your neck.

“Do you honestly think that I’m afraid of you?” you ask, voice so cold it sounds foreign even to your own ears. You can feel your pulse pounding somewhere around your throat, anger consuming you from the inside.

Laito’s eyes fix on yours. He’s frozen, for just a moment, and in that instant, you see something like genuine shock in his eyes.

Then, his face breaks into the same smug smile. He squirms in your grip, face going flushed with what looks like excitement, expression turning aggressive once again. You tighten your grip in his hair, and he moans, whatever surprise you saw in his eyes replaced by sickening arousal.

“Ah, Bitch-chan~ You’re finally going to be cruel? I’ve been just waiting for you to fight back, you know. You hate me, don’t you? Go ahead, show me how much you do,” he croons, leering at you.

You let go of his hair, annoyed at how well he catches himself.

“I don’t want to play your little game. I’m not afraid of you, and I’m not some scared little girl that you can push around. I’m not going to cower, and you’re not going to get anywhere with stupid intimidation tactics. You’re annoying.” The words fall out of you, fury bubbling out over your lips like tar. Vaguely, you realize that this isn’t wise, but you’re too angry to stop.

You want to hurt him. You want to pin this disgusting boy to the wall and choke him until he stops talking. You have the feeling you would, if you didn’t already know that he’d like it.

Laito shifts his posture to something open and vaguely aggressive, looking you in the eye again, the smile almost gone from his face. It feels like he’s trying to gain back some control of the situation. He licks his lips, eyeing you with something predatory and almost angry.

He looks like he wants to say something, like he wants to beat you into submission and make you play along with his will.

You stand straight, look him in the eye, and refuse to back down. Showing fear now would damn you. You started this, and you’re willing to finish it. Even if he kills you, you’re not going to let him win.

Looking into Laito’s eyes, you see the exact moment he changes.

All at once, the tension drops out of Laito’s frame. He relaxes, going back to the same fake-open bearing you’re used to. He smiles again, the familiar, easygoing look falling back into place.

“You’re really serious, huh Bitch-chan?” he grins, laughter in his voice. “Not many humans would stand up to me like you did, you know? It’s reeeally impressive, nfu.” His tone is amused, like you’re a child trying to stand on equal ground with an adult. You feel absolutely sick.

Laito steps forwards, slings an arm around your shoulder, and kisses you on the cheek, disgustingly affectionate.

“I like you, Bitch-chan. You’re going to be very fun to play with. Girls who hate me are always so pretty when they’re mad~ Yell at me again, won’t you? Tell me how terrible I am?” A blush paints his pale cheeks.

You feel more like hitting Laito than ever. You should have known that fighting back would just encourage him.

After promising you that he’ll be back, smiling as he tells you that he’ll have plenty of fun things to do to you next time, Laito is gone. You’re left alone in the room, shaking with anger, a headache pounding through you.

You’re disgusted. You’re furious. You hate that boy more with everything he says to you.

And yet, when you were staring him down, for just an instant, you thought you saw something almost vulnerable in his eyes. It was only an instant, but that look of shock won’t leave your head. You have the feeling that no one had ever tried to stand up to him before.

Fuck, you know that no one has. You’ve managed to endear yourself to him by refusing to be afraid, and now he’s even more interested in you than before.

You walk back to your room, taking the fairy tale book with you.

You’re bleeding where he bit you, red dripping down and staining your shirt. His fangs tore you up pretty badly when you yanked him away. You remember him moaning over how sweet you taste, and you don’t care.

Laito promised that he’d be back, and that’s the singular worst news you’ve had since getting to the mansion.

Even back in your room, you can’t stop thinking about how strangely Laito acted once you fought back. Perhaps the vampires really are just shocked that a human would dare lash out at them.

Perhaps you’ve opened a whole different can of worms.

You go to bed feeling vaguely unsettled, still angry over how Laito treated you. He’s still acting like it’s a joke, you know, and while that’s probably the only thing keeping you from getting killed, it still makes hot fury run molten under your skin.

The anger doesn’t quite erase the uneasy feeling in the pit of your stomach, though, the vague sense that you’ve gotten yourself into something terrible.

Telling yourself that it’s just the blood loss and adrenaline making you feel funny, you push it aside and force yourself to sleep.