Spite below the cut.

“why you always beg for money? get a job goddamn”

I can’t answer this lovely person’s ask because they’ve been blocked, but! I’ll make a lil response here. :>

And first of all, I don’t think this anon understands what “paying an artist for their work” is. I put a massive amount of my time into my blogs on top of being a full time student with severe mental health problems, and I do it almost entirely for free. It’s not a stretch to ask that I get some support during what’s been one of the hardest mental health periods of my life.

I don’t lie about why I’d like to get paid for what I do. It does go towards my hobbies, most often. However, those hobbies are also a big part of why I haven’t severely injured if not killed myself. They’re how I keep my mental health together.

I’m not demanding that people pay me, either. I’m asking for support because I put a lot of time and effort into what I do– time where I could be getting a job and never looking back. A job would pay more. It would pay a lot more. But I want to be here and I want to write. I’m a full time student and I’m disabled. I can’t do everything, and I definitely wouldn’t be able to write like I do if I had a normal job. Honestly, I’d love if this could be my job.

So, dear anon, the reason why I don’t get a job is because I’m choosing to be here, writing so that you can enjoy it.

Or rather, I would be, if you hadn’t been removed from my blog 🙂

Spite below the cut.

“why you always beg for money? get a job goddamn”

I can’t answer this lovely person’s ask because they’ve been blocked, but! I’ll make a lil response here. :>

So, dear anon, the reason why I don’t get a job is because I’m choosing to be here, writing so that you can enjoy it.

Or rather, I would be, if you hadn’t been removed from my blog 🙂

Can I get a scenario with Subaru and Azusa where their S/O never takes off his jacket, and when he does he also take off his shirt and has self harm cuts and scars?

Admin Mawile: (。･д･)ﾉﾞ

Subaru:

-You’d had to work yourself up to it, but you were finally ready to show them.

Almost hoping Subaru wouldn’t notice, you’d taken off the outer layers of your clothing as if there wasn’t a thing to be worried about, all the while praying that he wouldn’t have a bad reaction to seeing the scars.

Before you knew it, he was staring, eyes narrowed and a faint twitch starting up in the muscle of his jaw.

“What the fuck did you do this to yourself for?” Subaru almost yelled.

Even though the upcoming conversation was going to be hard on you, you were glad you’d shown them. It was better than keeping a secret from him.

Azusa:

-For a moment, you’d forgotten you even had the scars.

They were only in places that your shirt usually covered, and around someone that you trusted as much as Azusa, it was so easy to slip for a moment and forget that you even had them.

At least, until you noticed Azusa staring at you with eyes so wide they were borderline comical, a deep thinking expression on his face.

“You’re… like me…” he murmured, reaching you to gently trace his fingers over one of the more prominent scars.

“Let’s… give each other… more friends,” he whispered almost reverently.

With Azusa looking at you like he’d just realized how perfect you were, it was easy to forget just what kind of pain he was going to inflict.

Ok this might be triggering but what if really depressed owner asks them to bring her some water and at the procces she locks her bedroom door, the boys can hear disturbing noises from inside and then its eerily quite(lets assume in a moment of adreniline they broke the door and saw light from the bathroom and broke it too) what do they do when they see their owner lying in a tub full of blood?

Admin Mawile: (´；д；`)

Shuu:

-If you’re this determined to get rid of yourself, what exactly is he expected to do? If there’s anything he can do to keep you alive, he’ll help, but it’s not like he can control a human. It’d be better for him just to get used to the fact that you’re not going to be around much longer.

Reiji:

-He does not want to lose the one owner who’s shown some kind of affection for him. He’ll do whatever he can to help, and hopefully, whatever you did to yourself won’t be too damaging. He’s a bit afraid of going against your will, but he’d much rather be punished than re-homed.

Ayato:

-He outright panics, and winds up so upset that he cant think to do anything to help. He’s more or less useless in a crisis, especially because he’s not used to having to react to trouble quickly. He doesn’t want to lose you. You’re the first human to be anything resembling nice to him, after all.

Kanato:

-At first, he’s just fascinated by the blood, not really thinking of what it means. He’s rarely all there mentally, and it takes him a little while to realize that this is something you could die from. Once it sets in, he’ll try his best to get help, but has a hard time speaking out to other humans.

Laito:

-Of course, the one human to treat him with anything resembling kindness is going to die. Even if he helps, you’re probably pretty determined to off yourself, so he doesn’t really know what good it would do. He’d hate to lose someone so kind, though, so he’ll at least do something to make sure you make it.

Subaru:

-He panics from the very start, terrified that any attempt of his to help will just make things worse for you. He can’t see himself doing anything but harm in a situation like this, and he’s frozen with the fear that he could actually lose the kindest human he’s ever been able to be near.

Ruki:

-He absolutely does not want to lose out on the best home he’d ever been able to imagine having, and is determined to make sure you’ll survive. He really has no idea what to do to help, though, and winds up being rather clumsy in his attempts, forcing him to seek help from someone else.

Kou:

-The moment he sees blood, he shuts down, curling himself into a tiny ball in the corner and struggling to breathe. Whether he’d want to help or not, there’s little he can think to do when he’s like this, and spends much more time panicking than doing anything that would actually be helpful.

Yuuma:

-He has one of the more practical responses, seeking out help from someone who will actually know what they’re doing. He may know what to do with minor injuries, but this is far beyond anything he’s ever had to deal with. All he can really do is hope that you’re going to make it.

Azusa:

-At first, it doesn’t quite register to him that all the blood is a bad thing. Once it finally sets in, he tries to shake you awake, gentle pressing at your shoulders and hoping you’ll open you’re eyes. He’s not the most helpful, and the gravity of the situation doesn’t really hit him until much later.

Carla:

-Dutifully, he’ll seek out help, hoping that you’re going to be alright. You’re by far the kindest owner he’s ever experienced, and he’d much, much rather you stick around. He just hopes that other humans will be able to talk you out of whatever caused this whole mess in the first place.

Shin:

-A part of him thinks that he should be happy that another human is going to be gone, but then he realizes that he legitimately doesn’t want to lose you. He’ll get help, but hate himself for it later, pride insisting that he shouldn’t have let someone who owns him force him to keep a human alive.